Here goes - on 9th June 2008 something happened which gave me a feeling of hope from a previous bad situation etc. Then later on something very traumatic happened and I became very scared - but had to somehow keep going as life goes on . In 2008 I was still very scared and in November 2008 I felt that I didn't have long to live - I felt I'd possibly be dead within 4 months. My fear as it happened was totally unfounded on that score and obviously I'm still here !!! - however all throughout this time period I maintained my fitness regime and tried to better my circumstances. A lot of good things happened including 2 VERY unexpected good things. By March 2010 my life had transformed entirely and my life was excellent. !!!😀 So it took around 21 months for this turnaround in my life but looking back it was so worth it. I had some sort of a sense of hope even through the darkest times. So anyone whose going through a difficult time st the moment - please believe!!