To wish that I found it easier to make friends?

[jennymanara]

I have always had some friends, but I have always found it very difficult to make friends. So when a friend or two naturally drifts apart, I can find that I am left with no friends or one or two. This has been an issue for me all my life.
I don't know why I find it hard. I always get told that I am pleasant and friendly. At the moment I have one good friend who I have known for years and years and see regularly, a couple of other friends that I have know for years and years but don't see very often, and a couple of people I am friendly with and socialise with and would like to be proper friends with, but they dont seem interested - so one has birthday meals etc, but never invites me.

I find it hard to keep all the plates spinning.

I have one group of friends and see them alot (well, mostly what's app / school gate) but find it hard to fit in others due to timings.

Means all my eggs are in one basket and my network is really small. I don't understand people that have lots of sets of friends,

I wish I could branch out more without feeling like I create too much distance from the first group.