Hi, my baby is 8 months, and I need to start thinking about returning to work, shift based /uniformed job, i do enjoy parts of it, money is good for my grade, and lots of opportunities within this sector in theory, however husband has his own business, which means he's always on call of some sorts, in a perfect world he would love to have ds for 2/3 days a week but it just can't be granteed really, we have no family help regarding child care, and my mum is also seriously unwell and I have all the stress and upset that comes with that. We could manage I suppose money wise , although I have always worked for my own money, and don't like the idea of being completely reliant, and also my job! Don't particularly want to lose it, it would be a pain to try and get back into later on although not impossible, I could do a few hours here and there for my husbands business, (but that's his!) I did like having my own thing, but realistically do it matter? I am completely besotted with our little one and would love to have another, and I have loved my maternity leave, I don't have many friends that not gone back to work but there family set up is different and have parents that can help out, were abit remote and nursery would be a pain logisticaly and not practical as I would be doing shifts, could try and find a childminder, but not really that Keen on that , just worried I'll regret not going back, but also regret not being at home when really I don't have to go back, sorry if this sounds abit first world problem, I fully understand ppl have no choice and need/want to return to work, just trying to think what's best for us .