I'll start by saying I was sexually assaulted as a teenager so always have felt awkward about sex.
However I have liked it with my husband as I enjoyed the closeness and making him feel good. I wouldn't initiate it but would enjoy it.
Since having DD I just feel so gross. I can't keep up with shaving (I know this isn't important to lots of people but it is to me. Also OH doesn't care what is going on down there). My hair always looks a mess as I never have time to do it and my make up is worn off by the time OH gets home. Being at home all day makes me feel lazy and low. I miss being a successful somewhat well dressed and turned out woman. My clothes don't seem to fit nicely anymore. Also DD is sleeping in our room so we have to have sex downstairs which doesn't help.
Will I ever have a sex drive? I want to want to do it and feel sexy! AIBU to want to want sex if I don't want sex?