I love my job. I've worked incredibly hard to get here against the odds, and am doing well, with a promotion being talked about in the near future, despite having two periods of maternity leave in the last three years.
I love my dcs and would probably like to have one more. We have good childcare, but are just looking at our next step re school/ forever house etc.
The problem is that my job takes about 60 plus hours a week. It's high stress (which I handle well) and unpredictable. I have some flexibility, so I see the kids four a couple of hours each day and have a half day off each week.
But I am knackered. Youngest is still under one, so perhaps that will get easier. There is no time for me/ couple stuff, although DH and I do lots with the kids together and our relationship is good.
But is this just to much and will it only get worse as they get older? I basically feel like I am permanently a Crap employee/parent/ partner, enjoying each individual role but never doing any of it well. Yo top it off we live in a stupidly expensive part of the country, so even though I am paid well it all goes on mortgage and childcare.
So should I give it all up ? Or suck it up as I am so lucky to at least have choices ???