To feel like I am toxic

[MistyyDay]

Don't know where else to put this. I have horrible depression and axiety and I feel like my family would be happier without me. I make everyone miserable. I am on meds some days feel ok some just want to cry. My baby is only 15 months and he deserves a better mum.
It's not his fault and he should have a nice happy mum.

Those feelings are just a symptom. They will pass.

Your little boy needs his mum, not someone else's

How long have you been on your current prescription?

Do you need to see your gp and have your medication checked? Your baby boy is tiny and thinks you are the best mum ever :-) Try to rest and I hope some one with better knowledge comes along soon and gives you advice. Hang in there.

Have been on Prozac since june, 20mg at first now at 40mg a day

Its not you. Its how your illness makes you feel. Massive difference.

Slight understatement, but would you say the same if you or any parent you know had been laid low by the flu?

Please, recognise that what you say about yourself is the harshest possible diagnosis, and i assure you that noone else thinks of you as badly as you do.

I know how it is believe me. Don't believe what you tell yourself first off- ask yourself if you would say that to a friend. Then be your own friend. If that makes sense.

You will get better. I did.

Perhaps the Prozac isn't the right 'fit'? Please go back to your gp and get a change in meds and see if you can see a specialist. You aren't a bad mum, you are just depressed.

Meds are really not the solution for a lot of people, I wonder whether you would consider talking therapy?
Its hard this life business, but I don't think that because you're struggling it means you're a bad mum.
It's easy to be down on ourselves but I bet you do a good enough job. Is it really true that you make everyone miserable?