So it's Sunday night and I'm going on my first internet date since my husband left me a few months ago (and our one year old DD). It's raining and I so don't want to go out and go to a pub with a stranger after looking after DD all day and just having washed poo off a nappy (hope I don't smell of poo!).
I keep thinking that if my ex was here we could just get a takeaway and watch TV and it would all be so much easier. I never thought I'd have to go through the dating hell again! BTW I'm totally not ready for dating just trying to make myself move on a bit.
I didn't do anything terrible to him, he just couldn't cope emotionally with a relationship and family life I think, or any level of what he perceived as criticism of his lifestyle massive workaholism and constant travelling, leaving me alone a lot with the kids.
And this week after I reached breakdown point he sent lawyers letters about custody and money, which I think is just mean when we could have discussed it like human beings, even with mediation.
So feeling really mad and upset and really not like going on a date, but feel like I need to make myself, although I am leaving chocolate and a magazine as a treat when I get back, hopefully by 9.30 (how long do I need to stay on the date for, I don't even know this stuff anymore?).
Rant over!