to throw in the towel and start again.....

[GirlFryDay]

So folks I am a longtime lurker and irregular poster.... I would dearly love a kick in the ass (if you feel its warranted) and some direction...

Basically I am at the end of my tether. Currently off work with anxiety and low mood. This is my fifth week.

Contributary factors:

-Grossly overweight
-Very poor self-esteem
-Subtle/insidious workplace bullying altho this is over now, the prob hasn't been removed and I cant really action anything now)
-messy Marriage
-3 DC
-MASSIVE financial pressures. (neg eguity on our home; 35yr mortgage; am 37; paying 1000 each month; bought house in May 2006) 8k credit card debt in DH name

So am thinking sod it... Just sell the bloody house... get a loan for the shortfall and start again by renting.. I have paid into a mortgage for 12 years now and am worse off than when I started.

Hell on earth right now

What do you think?

How much would you be able to rent a suitable house for and how much would the loan be for?

Often renting is not cheaper than a mortgage.

could rent a suitable house for around 80.. wouldn't have to pay 120 in rates (live in NI) etc.... So we cld save 250 ish by renting.
doesn't really seem much after all .

I keep beating myself up for buying the house in this first place. Have had person-centred counselling before but it stopped due to demand/funding I guess.

Starting marriage guidance soon - been at DH for years to do it as we've not been getting along/zero intimacy/sexual rejection by my DH.

Oh god it all sounds so shitty. I wish I could get over the past but am finding almost impossible. Pathetic.

thanks for answering Mary & Nice.