AIBU to expect to want it all

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Diagnosed with bi polar 3months ago. Now out of hospital. Been very insecure/wobbly since.

DD (11months) has kept her routine o going to childminder from 9-5pm as when I was a SAHM I got depressed and ended up in hospital

I'm having a theraputic phased return at work

AIBU to expect to want to be a great mum and a great teacher? I'm so impatient for life to go back to what it was like.

I know I should post on mental health but there aren't many replies.

Sounds like you are doing really well!!

Don't you have the long summer hols ahead now if you teach?

I have got the summer hols but to be honest I'm dreading them! I hate being alone! I get quite anxious. Thought about doing some volunteering

I'll have DD for first 2 weeks and very monday afternoon (and whenever I feel I can cope) after that

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what about your partner/husband, other family?

What about husband?

Other family dont live near by and aren't much use

I think you might be better to go and see a very experienced therapist, once per week for one hour.