to be so enraged with h about this?

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Last week I posted this and today I went to the Gp hes diagnosed OCD and I have to fill in a daft form (asking if i want to kill myself -I dont)and go back next week,Gp did mention tablets etc but I didnt want to just take tablets and then not 'deal' with things.

Come home explained to H what doc said he said..... well thats no good didnt even get a prescription did you,he thinks its all in your head.
Then he said he knows all about OCD and its all mental health and ive 'stitched myself up'.

If you have a mental health problem like OCD it is, technically speaking, 'all in your head'. Not sure how you've stitched yourself up, however. FWIW Never expect non-medical people or non-sufferers to say the right thing about a psychological condition and you will rarely be disappointed.

The 'daft' form is a tool to assess your MH and some people will be battling with self-harm feelings when suffering from MH issues.

'all in your head' is an unkind thing to say and I don't see how you've 'stitched yourself up' - in what way?

It does sound (from your link- only had time to read OP) that you are avoiding your issues and are now having physical reactions to them. I would recommend counselling to unravel locked away feelings, which I'm sure is why you went to GP, and a book called Radical Forgiveness.

I think the stitched yourself up thing is him saying now ive admitted it im weak??.

I didnt want to take tablets just to hide my sad thoughts as my family has a record of drug abuse,alcohol abuse etc etc and as a result im v against drugs and alcohol and rarely drink or take anything other than paracetamol- in fact sudafed knocked me out.

Prescribed medication is not the same thing as alcohol or drugs. Medication can often allow the person to recover enough and start to rebuild their life and look forward instead of just living with often crippling symptoms. You shouldn't automatically dismiss meds. They're not addictive either.

It is admirable that you want to avoid drug/alcohol abuse but taking MEDICATION for a mental health problem is quite different. It may be the bridge you need to get your physical symptoms under control and seek the help you need. You can choose to get better and stop being the victim to the awful things you have been through. It will be unpleasant and difficult but the long term gain would improve your life exponentially.

Mental health issues are not a sign of weakness, they are a sign you have been strong for too long.

your dh is being an insensative shit

You dh is a knob, and it is possible you will come to see you've choosen a partner due to your past.

I understand your reluctance to taking Pills, I've been there too. However I've found that although the Pills are a short term measure, they give you enough of a lift to start dealing with your Problems yourself. However in regards to your dh, yanbu, he needs to show a little more understanding. Yes some illnesses are in your head, that doesn't make them any less real and it doesn't make you "weak".