MN
I was sat in A&E after a three-day bender, with a head injury, waiting for a CT scan with absolutely no idea how I’d done it (I still don’t).
I was never a daily drinker, but once I had that first drink, I had no idea where it would end. I’d go on a bender, feel absolutely shit for a couple of weeks, then get that high of telling myself I wasn’t going to drink again for a few months until the whole process started again. Rinse and repeat.
I haven’t had a drink since that day a whole year ago.
Since then, I’ve been away with friends for the weekend, been abroad on holiday, had nights out. All the things I’d spent 30+ years thinking I couldn’t do without alcohol and the dutch courage it gave me.
My anxiety has almost disappeared. The imposter syndrome I’ve always had at work has gone too.
Life is steadier now. There aren’t the huge highs and lows anymore, but the impact that has had on my mental health has been amazing. I am now addicted to sugar but I’ll tackle that issue next year 😊
I don’t think I’ll ever drink again now. I genuinely can’t imagine going back to how I was.
For anyone else trying to quit, it took me a lot of attempts to get here, so if you’re struggling, please keep trying.