Am I an alcoholic? Determined to stop

[Coffeeandtveasily]

I really need to change my relationship with alcohol.

I drink at the weekend, most weekends. Very rarely during the week but recently I've had a couple of midweek events and drunk heavily then too.

I'm talking numerous glasses of wine. When I start I have no off switch and will drink until I'm very drunk.

I wake up ashamed, guilty, anxious and embarrassed but will continue to drink at the next event etc.

I've quit for long periods before and felt great so I don't know why I fall back into these patterns.

I have a lovely life - DH, kids, decent job although I do have OCD, anxiety and intrusive thoughts. So there's definitely a bit of escapism in there as well as feeling like letting my hair down and wanting to party.

I'm not sure if I'm an alcoholic. I'm definitely a binge drinker with no off switch.

I've been reading a lot of threads on here and they're really helping so I wanted add my own.

Well done! I think one of the main things you have demonstrated to yourself is that you do still have control.

I was a bit like this (except I drank in the week too!) and found that the only thing that worked for me was complete abstinence. Now nearly 2 years, and I feel a lot better mentally and physically. Obviously this may not be the right approach for you, but I do recommend it.

Well done. Keep going!

Yey! Rooting for you!