Day 1 AGAIN

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i am more of a lurker on this board, however decided to start my own thread I’m hoping this will help me stay focused and accountable.

typical 40 year old binge drinker. Only used to be a Friday or a Saturday occasionally both now it’s Thursday to Sunday every week.

currently reading alcohol lied to
me and i really thought it was sinking in but hang in and had a drink last night

I understand the interest in counting days, but what I'll offer is that it creates a drive for perfectionism. You get to day x, drink then go back to day 1. Do this a few times and it leads to a feeling of 'I'll never get this sorted out'. Which becomes a new drink pattern layered on the old one. I say that because that was me. I could go for months without drinking but after having one I'd be right back to it because my desire for it was still there. That is the secret: remove your desire for it and you won't want to drink. It's like if you're a non-smoker: it's EASY to not smoke because you have no desire for cigarettes. Same thing is true with alcohol. Promise. And if you want to know more, I talk about this kind of thing on my 90 Days Later podcast - episode 3 Desire and episode 1 why we drink would be good places to start.