For various reasons, over the past 3 years I've got into the habit of drinking heavily when I do drink: instead of stopping at a couple of glasses of wine, that's really when I get into the swing of it. It doesn't help that my husband enjoys a drink and is brilliant company so we will sit there swigging away for hours.
Drink really isn't my friend, though. It often makes me feel sorry for myself all of a sudden and start listing everything wrong in my life. As for the next day, ugh! I know this all too well today, because having been on a health kick for the past month we had a few drinks last night and I feel like shit. Definitely poisoned. It doesn't help that when I drink, I also like to smoke. Double whammy! I don't even think about smoking when I'm not drinking, but the minute I have a glass of wine in one hand it feels wrong not to have a fag in the other.
Having those drinks last night turned a great weekend into a mediocre one because I feel too wiped out to do much today. Also not enjoying the embarrassment about last night's shenanigans. We rang four people we hardly know and invited them for Xmas!!!!!!!!!
I'd been really enjoying our health kick and noticed how much better my sleep is when I don't drink at all. No more waking in the middle of the night fretting about things. So I'm actually happy to be getting back on the wagon again.
I have a friend's birthday (via Zoom) coming up and saved half a bottle of wine to toast her with. The only thing stopping me from pouring it down the sink is the feeling that I don't want to be the odd one out not having a glass in my hand on the call, not entering into the spirit of the occasion.
There's a bottle of champagne in the cupboard waiting for Xmas, but I'm not sure I want to drink it even then! The trouble is that I love champagne and by the end of the bottle I will probably be wanting more. I wonder whether to just keep it in the cupboard as a reminder that I don't want to open it, if that makes sense.
Grrrr alcohol ☠ 💩☠