So, I’ve quit booze but rather than feel any joy or pride i just feel like collapsing. I am fearful for my health (ultrasound & most bloods looked ok but show slightly raised bilirubin which I’m losing the plot over) and I feel so incredibly stupid and ashamed of having let myself get to this point. I realised my issues years ago and have been reading the threads on this board for a long while - I have always prided myself on how together I am but it’s a complete farce isn’t it, I just worked really hard to make sure my problem was well hidden. I’m on the dry thread but didn’t want to post this on there and bring anyone else down with me. Anyone out there who can offer wise words? TIA