I am done. Literally done. Since lockdown I have been drinking a bottle of wine a day, sometimes more (and if I'm honest way before lockdown). I have had the last dregs of the wine in the fridge, bought both Annie Grace books and I'm ready to take back some control of my life. I am sick of feeling sluggish, anxious, depressed and low on energy. I have lied to myself for so long that the reasons for this lie elsewhere.
I have told my DH, who doesn't think I have a problem but promises to be supportive. He is an enabler in lots of ways, will buy me a bottle (or six if there's a special offer on!!!) if I have had a good day/bad day/celebration etc.
So I have put any 'leftover' bottles away outside of the house where they are not in plain sight. I don't know why I'm writing this, perhaps just as a way of accountability? I know I can do this, and I will do this. I need to feel energised again and sleep through the night. I have written a list of 'reasons why I drink' and 'reasons why I want to stop', the latter being reassuringly longer.....although 'because it makes me feel numb' features on both.