Crap

[sofasitter]

Just woke up from last night drinking - don't remember how I got to bed. I do remember allowing my teen to have a friend over. Who is now sleeping on my sofa. I got to stop. In these times it was seriously stupid to say yes, but in my mind last night it was a way of keeping my teen here.
I seriously got to stop. I'm embarrassed, my anxiety is sky high, can't see into anyone's faces today. Fuck.

Well the first thing you have done is acknowledge you have a problem and the second is getting help. You need to wake the friend and tell them to leave.

Oh I know I have a problem. I have stopped so many times, it only last a week or two.
Don't know where to get help or what I need.