Sorry just after some advice i love my boyfriend so much we have been together 13 years this august but i feel like the booze is taking over his life. He used to blame me for drinking as i suffer from anorexia and couldnt work for a while but now im working and doing well he still has not cut down on his drinking finding every excuse under the sun to try and compensate for it. Im not young im 35 this year and really want to have a child but he keeps putting it of and off at first blaming me for not being healthy enough and i have actually had 2 abortions with him as he felt "we" were not ready im in a catch 22 i love him but now his dad is dying of cancer and i feel if i leave him to try and start my life i will be the biggest bitch in the world i dont know what to do xxx