I did a post a while ago about be able to go on a holiday of a lifetime to Florida and how DS18 had changed his mind and was umming and aahing about going. Well he finally decided End of January, pretty firm in his decision. [ We managed to get most of it completely refunded, thankfully] Although he did say to me the other day, I don’t mind as much when trump isn’t there. Which broke me a bit because no way would we be able to afford this again. Anyway he’s quite happy in his decision, he’s staying here with my mum, will be a holiday for him as she’ll get him what he wants. I’m still feeling guilty that we are experiencing it without him. It was something he wanted to do as a kid who loved rollercoasters. But his anxieties have let him down. He has autism and his mind works in different ways. We are going to discovery cove and although that’s more for me as it’s my birthday treat, he’s not too into animals, only sloths. I’m just feeling incredibly guilty we will be there without him. It’s nuts really because we very rarely do much together as a family of 4, except meals out, him and DP go off for theme park days. Me and dd go for shopping days, me and DP go for date nights or shopping trips. He didn’t come on holiday with us last year, and tbh it’s was bliss, because as much as I love him, more than anything he is hard work, everything has to be planned meticulously as to not cause a meltdown. I know me, DP and dd will have a fantastic time I just can’t get this feeling of guilt out of my head.
bless him though he was talking to me about it the other day, and casually through into conversation about the obligatory message to say we’ve arrived, made a joke about it. Anyone else ever had the same?