So today, as I was cleaning my bathroom after cleaned the rest of the house, I did the dishes, laundry, made the beds, swept the floors, mopped from one end of the house to the other end, fed the cats and the chicken, picked my daughter's up at school, all while fasting.
But like I said,
while I was cleaning the bathroom I happened to catch my reflection in the mirror.
I was mortified at how exhausted and drained that women looked. I could see how broken and lost she feels.
I could feel her hurt and pain and confusion... But the me in the here and now said, what are u so sad about, u got nothing to be sad about, u don't have to go to work and you home all day doing nothing, what's to be sad about.... That's what she hs heard many times.... She is so lucky that her husband works and she gets to stay home and look after the house and kids.... So u suck it up and continue coz you still need to make a meal and the children can't see that ur not you anymore.....
So I pray and pray and daydream about getting into my car and driving off stopping when I run out of gas.
But I splash some water on my face and snap back to reality coz, I still need to look good for hubby and be romantic and share intimate moments.
So the lady in the mirror looking back at me, she looks at me with sympathy and understanding and says, u got this.