please help me

[helpme1h]

I suffer badly with depression and anxiety all my life, spent long periods unable to get out of bed. I got in the habit of eating crisps chocolate etc just to not have to move to cook to get up. Now I havent eaten normal food in over 20 years, I never liked it much to begin with, but now i,m trapped in this hell letting my body slowly die, i weigh 16 stone, am 5'4, junk is my only comfort, nothing brings me joy, i dont know how to stop, someone please help me 😥

I'm sorry you're struggling OP but you need to seek professional psychological help to deal with this. Have you spoken to your GP?

Definitely seek medical help.

The other thing you can do to help yourself is to set one small goal a day. Make yourself do something that is healthy but make it just a small step beyond what you do now so that you have success. That feeling of success gives you a feeling of control and then your next goals take the next step.

Don't think of fixing everything. Just make small goals. Maybe it is to get dressed or shower or buy a banana or walk to the mailbox or drink more water or boil an egg or whatever. Focus on the small and attainable.

I'm sorry you're unhappy, that sounds a real struggle.

Can you remember what you did like?

Start small with things that don't need much prep or cooking:
Fruit fresh or tinned
Toast or crumpets
Cheese
Jacket potato

Just get into the habit of trying and give yourself credit for that. Bonus if you find something you like! Remember it's OK to not like things too.

And take a multi-vitamin every day.

Have you asked your GP if there are any support groups?