I think I’ve had a nervous breakdown (aware it’s not a medical term but it’s what best describes it for me). Referred to psychiatry & talking therapies but might be a few weeks.
Im constantly crying, hyperventilating, pulling at my hair, nausea and panic attacks. I can’t sleep in the day as panic attacks jolt me away. My body aches so much, I feel constantly dehydrated with a banging headache. I’ve reluctantly been signed off work because of how bad it is.
I can almost handle all that, if I could feckin sleep. But it comes to 11pm, I take 7.5mg zopiclone and do a muscle relaxation tape. I feel positive and sleepy! Then I wake up at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am until I eventually get out of bed at 6am for another day of anxiety!
Ive been put on sertaline but it hasn’t kicked in yet. Had a sort course of diazepam the first week that didn’t really do anything (and I don’t like the talk around addictiveness).
I can’t take propanalol or any other beta blockers because I have arrhythmias. Which is shit because beta blockers are amazing for panic attacks.
I just don’t know what else to do 
it’s a vicious cycle - I’m anxious so I can’t sleep, I’m exhausted so I get more anxious, I’m more anxious so I get less sleep.
any words of wisdom would be appreciate so much!