So I decided I want to quit my nursery job and have an interview for a night job, 2 nights per week because I'm fed up with working everyday and hate the company I work for (not sure of I'm making right decision at all or even I like the job but I'm sick of myself moaning every day about not having the right balance). I've agreed to have a puppy, always wanted one but paying an absolute fortune for her which is another reason why I'm considering leaving my job. I've also booked in to have braces as again always wanted them but put off by money, it will enhance my confidence even if maybe I'm too old and fat now for it to enhance my appearance . I've also got this urge to dye my hair pink and go to a rave type concert as never been and just want to dance into oblivion (although happy with any live music right now). On top of this i want to book a holiday I can't afford to Iceland and a cruise on my credit card and say fuck it like is too short!! Inside I feel like I'm livng ground hog day and always playing it safe, same job, same partner, house, same clothes, hair, appearance blah, blah. I just want to scream some days. My life is good but dull and I'm getting older.