I feel bad that my child's childhood homes were substandard.

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Just that. The first place we lived in after she was born was lovely, but we got evicted because the landlord sold it and for the next eight years we lived in shit holes. I mean, real shit holes. Water coming in the roof, slugs coming through the floors, landlords who variously shirked, intimidated, ripped us off ... I found it so hard to get somewhere decent. I only had one wage and a lot of that was taken up with childcare so when I went for anything nice, I dunno, we didn't get it.

Eventually found one ok rented place but they booted us out of there within two years as well and now thankfully we're in a council flat which is affordable, nice quality and secure.

But fuck me that's a long time my dd didn't have that. That's a lot of her childhood where her home was pretty terrible. I did my best over those years, tried to make sure she had nice experiences, nice food, nice books etc. But I couldn't give her a good home. And I feel bad. I feel really bad about it.

Dont feel bad at all
She was loved, fed and did have a roof over her head.
You did well even if you dont think it.
It sounds like even at your lowest points, you still were better than so many parents.

My father was given a housing trust house (aus version of council homes)
He trashed it, literal bags of rubbish everywhere and shit on walls, rotting food, piling up plates. It was horrific.
His alcohol, gambling problem and his abuse of me is what I remember most, has affected me long term.

You DD will remember the love you showed her, the fact that no matter what you always tried, put her first and worked to a much better place. You DID NOT fail her in ANY way.