Struggling today trying to put a brave face on

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Trying to be excited for Tomorrow for the children and have felt ok in the run up but today has hit me hard.
Had a termination earlier in the year due to severe ptsd and not being able to cope with another child on top of everything else. Today I feel devastated it would have been that baby’s first Christmas tomorrow I can’t cope with this guilt

I’m so sorry you’re feeling so low

You did the best for you and your little ones. You have nothing to feel guilty about.

Be kind to yourself. Sending you best wishes and a unmumsnet hug.

Everyone’s social media looks amazing their families are look like they are having fun I know this could deceiving but feels like we are not festive and that’s my fault.

I am so sorry to hear what you have been through. I too am struggling this Christmas for different reasons but please don't feel like you are alone.
It is totally normal to have good days and bad days. Is there anyone you are close to you could talk to about this?
Maybe as soon as Christmas is over you could seek out some counselling support to help you work through your feelings.
Please don't be hard on yourself and take care.
I hope tomorrow goes okay.
My thoughts are with you. Sending my best wishes xx