Thought it was a bad period ... HR 121 , BP 160/96 ... fever etc ... doctor has sent me off in a taxi and off to bigger hospital thirty miles away for bloods , scans etc and possibly an op (that I’m waiting on anyway) . I am terrified of hospitals ... despite having worked in one for four years (left in 2017) as a patient or visitor I’m a mess . Panic attacks etc . No one with me although colleagues said they will try to come up later . I’m scared as I recognised bits of what they were saying eg elevated news score , etc , and just feeling crap . Left my mum at home alone too so worried about her too 😕