Hi, I've just joined this site out of desperation really. I've been married about 9 months and am due to have our first baby next month. The problem is, I think my husband is emotionally abusive and he is changing me beyond all recognition. I blame myself because I don't want him to leave so I put up with it. If he left I couldn't afford to continue with the mortgage, the thought of being a single mum scares the hell out of me and also it would kill me to see him with someone else because I do love him so much.
Most of the time he is fine but when he gets angry he is vile. He puts me down, calls me a fat c*nt, tells me he can do better and he's had enough and will be leaving soon. He believes he is more important than anyone else and he can speak to people however he wants but everyone has to speak to him with respect at all times. I think he might have mental health problems. I'm worried the baby will hear his tirades, I'm scared my son will grow up thinking women are second class citizens.
I'm sat typing in tears because he has just had another rant. Told me I'm a piece of shit and nothing to him and there's no point in crying because he will never feel sorry for me. I'm not after sympathy, I just need some guidance.
I'm not a stupid person, I have a masters degree and a good career in a respected field. I don't know how I ended up here but now I feel trapped. I wish he would see a doctor but he won't. Has anyone else had a relationship like this that got fixed? If it did, how?