Cant sleep, ama about my life and will answer

[Mermaid64]

Cant sleep, ama about my life and will answer. I will warn ive had a messy life.

What jobs have you done? Which did you enjoy most?

What is your biggest win and loss?

why can't you sleep?

I started work at 14 in a local cafe!
After studying journalism at uni i then did internships at magazines such as heat, company magazine, cosmopolitan.

London was very expensive so i ended up moving back to my home town and ended up working in insurance for ten years.

I walked out of my job when i turned 30 with no new job lined up, shit myself when i realised what id done 🤣 within two weeks i got a new job that im still at, im a marketing executive for a fashion brand and by far my favourite job role ive had.

What sauce do you put on your chips?

Biggest loss in general terms, losing my mum at 18 to cancer.

Biggest wins, staying kind and resilient despite things that have happened in my past. And still building a happy life.

What's the last concert you went to and how was it?

Im the worst sleeper in the world!! Always have been since a child!! My brain comes to life at 11am until around 3am, every single night!!!

Ketchup girl! With lots of salt!

Biggest regret?

If you could go back in time to when you were 18 (with the knowledge you have now and the people you had then), would you do it?

May be judged for this but the last concert was chris brown last year. I went with my sister, we dont get to do much together and we danced and drank gin all night!

Biggest regret is probably not going to therapy sooner and subconsciously letting my insecurities effect past relationships. Ohhh thats and interesting question! No i dont think i would go back in time.

Happiest moment of your life

Are you more of a night owl? I am. I would love to go to bed around 1 or 2 am and just start my day later.

I haven't had a particularly good life so this is quite a difficult question! Im still waiting for the happiest moment. But this has made me quite sensitive and i cry a lot at happy things, sometimes even at a nice birthday card someone gets me!

Oh absolutely!! I am dreadful in the mornings no matter what time i go to bed. I have so much energy at night time 🤣

What was one of the difficult childhood challenges you had to get through, which you said ultimately helped make you resilient? If you want to share.

I grew up in a household where there was domestic violence. My dad had numerous affairs and i was fully aware of them. He would go out drinking a lot and come home and best my mum. We had to flea a lot of times. I was sexually abused by my dads dad as a child. I never told anyone until my own dad was arrested and pleaded guilty to child sexual assault on his god daughter. My family called me a liar and they all disowned me.

I suffer a lot with trusting men, with abandonment issues and not feeling good enough.

Do you plump your sofa cushions and karate chop then into a V shape? (as is apparently a current fad).

Favourite Book?

Haha oh dear i dont seem to be with the trends clearly 🤣 no karate chopping around here!

I really liked the girl on the train. I read it on a holiday and couldnt put it down. Hated the movie.

What did you have for dinner?

What would you do if you won the lottery?

I had teriyaki chicken and rice. Also a strawberry tart! How about you? I could do with some inspo!