Bit of a reality check over the last few days, friends. I'm sure it's one you're all familiar with. I've now lost 3 stone 6lbs, and was feeling great - fitter, healthier, less yuck in general. I have a very fancy party to attend in London tonight, and was actually looking forward to choosing clothes for once - I have a wardrobe full of nice things I now technically fit into. Except of course that despite the weight loss, I'm still 18 stone 7 - not the slender nymph I was starting to feel like in my head! Plus my body shape has changed. My top half is looking good (apart from the awful flappy arms, but they can be hidden), but the bottom half...not great. It's like all my flab has rolled down my body and collected in my giant belly apron. There are literally handfuls of it, along with what one of you described brilliantly as a camel toe that goes all the way up to my belly button! Like a lot of us, jersey fabric used to be my friend, with all its stretch - but now it is very much the enemy with all its cling! So I spent a whole afternoon trying stuff on, taking photos of myself for clarity, and realising it all looked like crap. Ended up deciding on a safe bet Yours swing dress, leggings, and my trusty Doc Marten boots. I keep telling myself that this is a transitional stage, there is a long way and a lot of changes to go - I am still in my fat chrysalis and the butterfly has yet to emerge! But it still wasn't great, kind of burst my bubble if you know what I mean.
BUT - at least it definitely gave me lots of motivation to carry on! Don't know about you guys but I have a terrible track record of losing a decent chunk like this, starting to get compliments and feel better, than somehow getting so carried away with myself that I crash right off the wagon! That's definitely not going to happen this time. The belly apron will probably never entirely disappear, and I will probably forever have the horrible itch/rash/sore spots under it (sorry if that's TMI, I'm guessing you all know what I mean...), but it will reduce.
So, London tonight, then Spain on Thursday - wish me luck!