@AdotHam your words about feeling overwhelmed really resonate with me. I’ve had a few moments in the past week where I’ve felt overwhelmed by the task ahead of me, and even when I’m having little victories it feels like I’m in the first yard of a marathon.
I had a moment recently when my friend commented that I looked really well had I lost weight/had a tan etc … and I confided that I was on MJ. She was a bit minimising (unintentional, she is lovely and meant well) and asked did I get it by fibbing about my weight ? I said no, I’m really very obese and have weight related health needs- she didn’t believe me… you don’t look that big , yea I need to like a few lb’s too, could you just eat better , fruit for breakfast help me slim etc.
I brushed it off but went home and felt invalidated and overwhelmed and had a good cry , like my struggle wasn’t seen as real. But it feels very hard and real… and is very real!!! Queue existential crisis and questioning myself about my life choices and if I’m actually just fat / lazy/ dysfunctional etc.
my point is.. I think we have to be kind to ourselves and recognise this isn’t just about losing weight. It’s hugely emotional and significant, this (for lots of us) is life changing and that’s scary and comes with all kinds of introspection.
I feel like hugging you for your honesty and bravery in this journey, and am so so grateful for you and all here for sharing these truths about these feelings .
This would be a very lonely journey without you all.
enjoy the sun, remember you are fabulous and you are giving yourself a gift in this journey and are smashing it 🙌🏻