Turns out there’s free WiFi so I can fritter away my journey on mn instead of reading a proper book like in the olden days.
Like @JunoRoma I set a vague goal but now I need to think more carefully and also get used to not losing weight, which feels a bit difficult. I never really thought I’d get this far.
I think I want to go down to 73.6 kg, which is 30 kg off and just into a healthy BMI. That’s another 2.9 kg. But it would also be less than I weighed at 18.
I don’t think I look overweight now. I mean, I’m not thin, but my waist is 79cm (height 172), my body fat is 29%, and I look pretty fit. Only subcutaneous fat is 1% too much and my BMI is 25.9 instead of under 25.
I’m a size 14 or 42 down from 18/20. Small end of 14. In fact bought a skirt and almost a shirt in 40/12 at the airport. My shoulders are broad and my bust still fairly generous and I just have a large frame so 12/M is too tight on shoulders in some brands (eg Boden), but right in others (eg Monsoon).
Gradually building up a new wardrobe, since I had almost nothing from 20 years ago when I was this size. It’s absolutely amazing being able to walk into any shop and know they’ll have 42, and it’ll probably look great, even if I still prefer only to buy secondhand or from brands which also supply larger women. It’s also incredible just not being too big for everything, like life jackets and hotel dressing gowns. My whole adult life I’ve known things won’t fit me, and now I’m suddenly in the expected range.
I really hate that I get better service now, though. And I especially hate that larger women often look distrustful of me. I never realized how much silent camaraderie there was, and now I can see they unconsciously assume I’m a potentially judgmental slim woman, rather than a nice plump sister.