@eibbed999 @GnomeDePlume @Onenotsosmallstep
Your stories about not wanting to take up too much space, not being able to live life the way you want and feeling ugly/judged by others have all hit home for me. I actually feel very sorry for myself when I think back. I know I'm not as confident as I used to be, and lost the spark in myself I had because people see my size before they see me, my humour, my wit.
My mother, well meaningly, put me on Rosemary Connelly when I was 8, I also went to health visitors, dieticians, SW, WW, personal trainers, Cambridge diet, hypnosis, 5:2, juice dietetc.
Got severely bullied at school for being unattractive. Imagine having a nick name like "stretchmarks" shouted to you across the school hall when you're 14. 😓
What's interesting is that I have a sister who looks very similar to me, but is a size 10 (and a zumba instructor!) so I have a constant reminder of "this is what I could have looked like" to rub salt in the wound every time we take photos together, we go on holidays etc.
This thread I feel most safe with, as some of you have said, people on other threads complaining that they are whales at a size 14. I can only imagine what they secretly think of people like us.
I'm looking forward to living a life I want and I deserve. I'd like to go on my first roller coaster, shop at regular high street shops, and do some adventurous holidays (hiking/climbing /skiing).
SW:144kg (size 28)
CW: 127kg (size 24)
1st GW:100kg
MJ has given me what no diet had ever given me before - HOPE