I feel like I've finally shifted the constipation and general yucky feeling thank goodness, just in time to inject again this evening 😩I'll be honest there's a huge part of me tempted not to bother as I can't really face another week of waiting for the side-effects to kick in and just generally feeling crap. I wanted to do this to be a happier, healthier me, and I feel like I'm actually being the worst version of me at the moment - I'm exhausted from being kept up with cramps or needing a poo or not being able to have a poo or pooing too much, I'm anxious that I'm going to start throwing up again any day, and I'm really bloody grumpy with it all. I'm not saving any money on buying crap food like I see so many others saying, I'm actually spending more on fibre supplements, buscopan, peppermint capsules, gut friendly foods and supplements etc etc.
And apparently I'm not losing any sodding weight either - I did weigh yesterday and it looked like I'd lost 3lbs this week, but stupidly decided to step on the scales again today as it's my official weigh in day, and that was back.
Oh - I'm also having a period every two weeks at the moment, and they're proper doozies too. No idea if that's MJ related (I've read it is affecting some women's cycles) or menopause or what.
I'm bloody fed up either way. I've also not felt particularly strong suppression on 5 at all, the urge to comfort myself from all the above with sweet stuff is really strong and I've given into it more than once this week - always staying within my calories but still eating stuff I'd rather not.
More than once the last few weeks I've thought 'sod it, I'd rather be fat'. Trying to ignore that as the self-sabotage it is. I know I probably will jab tonight as normal, and just hope for a better week - but I'm feeling a bit sad that this thing that was supposed to be such a positive has gone south quite quickly! Fingers crossed this coming week is better and I can get back to the optimism I felt when I first started.