The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Braving The Wine Witch & Her Alcohol Free Autumn

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Hello

I’m Mouse one of the Brave Babes who ride on this wonderful Bus, called Gerald, along with all the Opal Fruits wrappers and of course Barry The squid.

We all have a wise variety of life experiences and experiences with alcohol too. We’re not admirers of hang overs and we certainly don’t do judgey pants!

We’re here to ride along with you, when life is pants but also when it’s not as well and you my want to celebrate that bit too much!

So find a seat and come take a ride. I’ll link the previous and also the very first link and the reason we’re all here.

*Mouse

spanna41
How did the bar trial go? I survived the hangover. It was pretty awful. I went to bed at 8.30 and slept right through. I'm just dreading tonight as I know I'll be having the sweats. 😕
doris9034
I'm off to Aldis in a bit I'm so getting some of that! It sounds wonderful.
MsHoolies
Listen to Tangfastics, you can do this.

Hope everyone else is ok on this cold but sunny Autumnal day.

Hello! Could I join? I have posted a few times but always with a bit of a gap.

Today I'll be af. Why's it so hard though?!

Morning all
I'm still not feeling too fantastic, germy and rough.

Hi Saywhen - good luck today - it's so hard because I guess we fall in to a tough to break habit with a delicious yet addictive substance, I suppose it's as simple and as hard as that really. I often think about why some people can have a glass of wine on odd occasions or enjoy one with dinner once a week and conclude I have no idea, wish I could be one of them though!

Have a good day all

Thank you for the reply. Very much appreciated. I'm sorry you're not feel well. I hope you feel better soon.

Mrs Hoolies

Your H is an utter cunt - but I already had that opinion of him from your earlier posts. Whilst you chose to drink he is part of the reason you are now where you are - and more needs to be done to educate 'support' (yes, that is cynical laughter you hear) people who have gone through years and years of DV.

He is trying his utmost to push you further and further down the hole and he'll happily play the 'decent human being' game to utterly mess with your head. Your self worth is in the gutter, as evidenced by your drinking, because he's chipped away at it over the years and so now here you are.

I'm stood right next to you, not that that really helps - but my life is in utter tatters too. 42 and I really see no future nor any way out.

Oh MsHoolie my heart goes out to you and there but for the grace of God....

This bus is such a good kick up the arse for those of us teetering on the edge. I’m continuing to strive for relative moderation and broadly succeeding. Alone in a hotel
Last night, husband left for his business trip, until a couple of months ago I’d have drunk far too much given that opportunity. I didn’t though, I had a glass of wine and one of prosecco in the lounge and managed to avoid the room service menu beckoning me.

Onward and upward fellow passengers, tomorrow is another country.

Welcome "say when". Not been around much but am reading

So much has happened so I won’t go into too much detail but I came into hospital voluntarily against my better judgement because my DPs and doctors twisted my are.
After 2 days, I asked if I could just go out and fresh air because I was going stir crazy having just spent 18 hours in a - -padded cell- - 136 suite and the doctor refused because she thought I was too much of a risk and, when I persisted, placed me on a section 5(2) which is a ‘holding section’ which lasts for up to 72 hours which means I can’t leave the ward at all.
You then get assessed within the 72 hours and either get put on a ‘proper’ section or they rescind and you’re free to go.
It’s horrible here. Most of the staff are ok but some of the agency ones are shit - one told me to stop being a baby.
You need permission for the slightest little thing.
A few days ago, I felt so desperate and so trapped and I was the only patient in the lounge that didn’t have a visitor with them that I just had a moment of madness and tried to hang myself from a shower rail.
As the staff were trying to get me down, the towel rail snapped and I fell and landed on my side including my elbow which is fractured and is going to need surgery.
This is really going to mess up my detox which is supposed to start on Wednesday but, tbh, I ‘m not sure I’m strong enough to do it at the moment.
I have been pretty much detoxed here and the irony is that I feel about as low as I have in my life.
I’m seriously tempted to discharge myself tomorrow and just start drinking again.
And because of the hanging incident, I’m on one to one which means being followed everywhere and having someone sitting outside my bedroom at night with my door open.

MsHoolies so so sorry things are as they are. And so sorry (as a retired MH nurse) that some of the staff are shit. Having no visitors is shit too, the staff should have spent time with you, rather than leave you to your thoughts and to feel alone and neglected.
Please please don't discharge yourself and start drinking, try and use this detox as a new start, I know that's easy for me to say. Ask about what next, more support, rehab?
I've "1 to 1'd" many many people, as I'm sure you have, I always tried to be compassionate. Hopefully your night nurses will be.
Your story has touched me and made me realise yet again "there but for the grace of god go I", your story scares me.
Please take care x

MsHoolie, my heart really does go out to you. You have been severely tested over and over these last few weeks. I really admire you as even in your horrible situation, you are always giving others positive advice. I wish I could do the same for you now but I am not clever enough or no where near eloquent enough to form the words but if I was beside you now I would give you the biggest hug and I have a rather glorious ample bosom!! So what can I say? Just keep posting on here, we are all listening and all rooting for you
Also I have read the 'guilt' you feel about working in mental health and now being a patient yourself, there is no shame in that and I say this as an ex bank manager who faced near bankruptcy because of my personal debt. None of us know what dark paths our lives will take us down but I like to think that we are all on the bus standing with torches to light your path to bigger, better and of course, brighter things xx

Oh Mrs H

If I were anywhere near I'd visit you.

I've been on a psych ward voluntarily - I do not rate them at all. It's nothing more than a revolving door system. People seem to think there's all this intensive help available - not in my experience. The best you can hope for is to be 'complex' enough to have meds thrown at you, a weekly visit from the ward psychiatrist, somewhere warm to sleep and food. If you're not, god help you because no one gives a flying fuck about the issues you face once outside the doors.

You stay there, get yourself into detox, use the support system you have and get yourself extricated from your vile husband.

MsHoolies
Whereabouts are you? I'm sure one of us must be nearby to come for a real life hand hold.
Please, please do not throw away the detox. Things always get shit before they get better . And also, LTB. I think you will get better faster without him. Sending you much love.

I’m done.

Can anyone pm me?

Tang I’m in that half dreamlike state when you get up for a pee and stagger back to bed and have taken heavy duty sleeping tablets so I probably wouldn’t make much sense but very happy to pm you in the morning if you can hang on a couple of hours x

I'm sorry to take up this thread a bit. This will be my last post on this subject but I feel the need to say it.

MsHoolies

1. You are in a bad place.
2. You are in a bad place and it is making you think bad things.
3. You think you have de-toxed. You haven't.
4. De-toxing is easier than you think.
5. De-toxing is not Re-hab. Please don't confuse the two.
6. Please continue to try.
7. Please try, people care x

Very very last post, thank you for the pm, you know who you are

Oh and also made a MASSIVE typo in an earlier post.

I was sober for 28 days not 38. Sorry!

Over and out.

Tang you OK?? Sorry I have only just caught up with the thread. And please don't apologise for posting, we all need help at some time or another!

Checking in. Tough on here just now. Hope struggling babes are ok. I drove to Sonehaven and back today to deliver Poppy Badges to the Cadets. I saw these signs in the loos..

😆

Love you demented x

Hello.

Hope you are all ok. So sorry to read the horrid times some of you are having.

I am day 4 today af. Thank you to the suggestion to sober mummy (sorry not sure who it was.) Found it really helpful.

Hope you all have a good day x

mshoolie sending you all my warmest thoughts. Moment by moment you can move onwards.

Love to all who are struggling x

OK, bad news is that I have just been placed on a section 2.
The good news is that I have completed a detox on the ward and have been AF for 7 days which is the longest I’ve done for about 2 years. Trying to look on the bright side

Well done on the 7 days mshoolies. How do you feel?
Think of that section as a way to keep you safe.
Take care of yourself