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thank you all, because now I'm safe

235 replies

helpmekeepstrong · 12/08/2014 00:01

Having been in an abusive relationship and afraid, I started to read Mumsnet. Over a period of months, I began to understand that my life wasn't as it should be. I read more and more threads and came to the conclusion that leaving was going to be a very frightening thing to do. I contacted the DV helpline and started the process. I would never have had the courage to involve the police, living in a very tight and protected community.
I quietly planned, with my sisters, via email, how to get away. Even e-mailing was frightening and secretive. I have no family here, in the UK. I had one friend left and she in the next county. I had my husband with me 24/7 and yet, even living in one caravan, under his nose, quietly, I managed to pack enough clothes and documents. My friend came for me in her car and I got away. He didn't even see me go, we were that quick. I even managed to take my little dog with me.
Now I am hoping to find a place in a refuge and then to house myself and start again. I'm 58 years old and beginning a new life.
Thank you Mumsnet for the threads that saved me.
I have had some days of peace which have been wonderful.
Tonight I had a message that he wants to talk to me. I don't want to talk to him.
So I will not.
Any of you, reading this and wondering if you can..... you can.
If I did it, it is surely possible for you.

OP posts:
Cricrichan · 14/10/2014 21:23

Wow that's wonderful op - a great inspiration. All the best for the future xx

Ijustworemytrenchcoat · 14/10/2014 22:07

I am so happy you got away and are safe. I wish you every happiness.

FrancisdeSales · 14/10/2014 22:28

So proud of you lady! My best friend's mum finally divorced her abusive husband last year. She is at least in her 70s, possibly 80s and she married him on the rebound years and years ago when as a young woman her fiance died in a plane crash. He bullied her and the kids and made all their lives hell but she still finally did the deed and is now living happily with her daughter and grandson who adore her.

Glad you were able to step out in courage and not be cowed any longer. Please keep updating us x

ToastyFingers · 05/11/2014 09:10

I followed a link her from another thread and just feel compelled to say you are an incredible woman and a real inspiration.

Because of your bravery, you are now truly, truly free.
I hope your new life brings you all the joy and happiness you deserve.

helpmekeepstrong · 07/11/2014 12:28

Really thanks for all the messages of support! It was three months yesterday since I ran for my life! I have had some fantastic support from the staff at the Refuge and my housemates. Communal living isn't the easiest.... especially with 7 children under the age of 7 in a three bedroomed semi.... but we manage just fine. My little dog is still with my friend and we are looking forward to the day when we can set up home together once more.
I have had three months to write, read, talk, do the Freedom Programme and have learned such a lot. I have chosen not to have any contact at all with my husband or his family. I understand, now, that his view of the world, its people and his place in it, indicate some quite serious mental health problems and I'm very glad to be away. I have had to study the past, but I choose to dwell on the future and every day brings new joy. Every day new energy, strength and hope for the good times ahead.
I say again, if you are afraid, take strength from the pages here at Mumsnet, where I first realised that I had an alternative. The unimaginable is possible.
On a really good note.... some kind person has nominated me for a present from the Secret Santa!!! I cannot tell you how thrilled and touched and warm I feel about that! Thank you with all my heart Mumsnetters!

OP posts:
Meerka · 07/11/2014 13:11

It's absolutely lovely to hear you are surviving, and surviving well.

Flowers and < unmumsnetty hug>

tipsytrifle · 07/11/2014 13:18

I'm so happy for you, strong and always pleased to hear from you on here. I'm happy that Dog is doing well too! Please please keep us updated. I'm sure many of us will want to know how you're doing and when you get your new home in whatever shape or form Smile

Tiredemma · 07/11/2014 13:20

amazing.

well done to you.
What a brave woman you are - and im so glad that you got your little dog away x

Fontella · 07/11/2014 13:25

Wonderful update!

AmserGwin · 07/11/2014 14:14

Just found this thread. Seriously impressive op, so glad your finding your way. Onwards and upwards for you now, stay strong, and keep updating would love to hear how your doing Smile

Madcatgirl · 07/11/2014 14:26

I've just found this thread.

I'm humbled by you op. You've overcome so much and I wish you all the best for your future with your little dog back with you.

Stay strong you amazing lady.

Sarine1 · 07/11/2014 15:50

How lovely to hear your good news - what a massive achievement. Wishing you continued steady progress and happiness. I do think your story and strength epitomises what's best about Mumsnet.

socksandsandles · 07/11/2014 16:02

Well done Op! I got out of an abusive relationship many years back. I remember saying to my mum and sister that I was afraid id go back to him (he had a hold over me). I never did. Stay strong, strive to be happy, surround yourself with people who love you, do things you enjoy and stay safe! What a success story :D x

DrCoconut · 26/11/2014 21:35

Amazing story. I too remember the fear running away. I assembled what little I could and ran for it with my DS1 who was under 2 at the time. I still get knots in my stomach thinking about it. I have since paid off all debts and now have a house with my DH who I met 4 years later when I was ready for a new relationship. The story about the eggs in the caff really resonated with me. I remember that amazing feeling of being free to actually eat what I wanted and go out without scrutiny. You will never regret doing this. Strength and all good wishes to you.

JACKS1999 · 26/11/2014 23:58

Gosh well done. Do not have any contact with him. That's your power now to choose who you speak to. Very brave.

JeffreyGartnerEatsWell · 27/11/2014 00:06

Hope u have the best xmas u have had in years Brew

Meerka · 27/11/2014 08:35

yes, do :) Wine

theprodigalmum · 02/12/2014 10:49

Another one here who's been linked to this thread from another.

Massive hugs & pats on the back strong. I can see you growing stronger in each post. Please keep posting to let us know how you're doing.

How is the writing going?

MillionToOneChances · 06/12/2014 02:26

This thread is inspirational. Well done OP Flowers

iloverunning36 · 06/12/2014 19:23

Amazing, hope there is progress on the housing, well done Flowers

TheWindowDonkey · 06/12/2014 20:21

Just found this thread Strong. I hope you continue to make progress on your journey towards healing and in your new life. Wishing you a very Happy first Christmas of freedom. Keep going, onwards and upwards!

moomoo1967 · 06/12/2014 21:06

I have only just read this thread as it appears in active. I wish that I had known about Mumsnet when I was in an abusive relationship. I am so pleased you are still hanging on in there and are happy. I know the feeling of relief still 12 years later when I can walk through my own front door without the feeling of dread I used to have

helpmekeepstrong · 07/12/2014 20:56

Thank you for your continued messages of support! Sometimes it is good to look back to see how far I have come.
I am looking forward to Christmas for the first time in years, I am so excited!!! My Mumsnet Secret Santa gift is on its way and tomorrow I get to see one of my daughters for our pre- Christmas celebration!
I'm so lucky and will spend Christmas and New Year with my friend and my little dog! Can't wait. The Refuge take us all to lunch in the week before and we will have a party for the children. I hear that Santa will becoming - in person - and with a big sack of toys. For those that won't be able to go to friends and want to be out of the house on Christmas Day, the Fire Brigade host a family lunch with carols and games. (As if they didn't already do enough!)
My housing application proceeds slowly but I actually have housing prospects. This time last year I thought it was a choice of him or the street. I am a bit skint, but have bought haberdashery and am making presents for the nearest and dearest.... am reasonably nifty with a needle some felt and some beads.
So all in all, 2015 looks to be a blinder! I'm going to get a home, get my dog, dust off my interview smile and get a job. Then I shall host a lovely Sunday lunch for all my dear ones and raise a glass to our future. xxxx

OP posts:
IDeserveMore · 07/12/2014 21:26

You are truly awesome. And you deserve the most peaceful and wonderful Christmas.
Xxx

KiwiJude · 07/12/2014 21:49

I too have only just found this thread. You are amazing, and I'm sure you give hope and inspiration to others who are in the situation you were.

All the very best for a lovely Christmas Strong, and the rest of your life, to you and your lucky little dog, your family, and the friends you'll make along the way. X

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