The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

Well, I went to physio and hydro as per. Saw my lovely physio who said he'd go look at my MRI scan, see if there was anything he could look at.

He came back and said that I have a 'significant bulge' on the last discs of my spine, where the pain is, and that the two above are disfigured/swollen also.

Shit.

I have no idea what that means as I have to wait for the report from the doc.

Physio mentioned surgery but how am I going to do that? What about Nemo? I can't be out of action can I?

Oooo. New Thread!

Hello, I am GollyHolightly and I am an alcoholic. Today I won't be drinking.

Isinde - sorry you've been having family problems. You sound like a great mum to me! I often forget that you have a female partner until you mention it. Probably because it doesn't matter to me! I hope you're feeling a bit calmer today. I have drank after a meeting before, it's madness, isn't it?

Well done on make the call, venus I made two calls yesterday that I'd been putting off. Both overdue bills that were about to go to court . Been putting those calls of for weeks but it doesn't half feel good to have sorted them out

You know that AVRT stuff? I am happy to report that since using the technique I read about (quickly, still not had time to research it properly!) four days down the line and the devil on my shoulder is really starting to shut up most of the time, which is a massive relief

Hope you're all having a good day x

mouse don't project. Take it one day at a time. Today you are with nemo, tomorrow you will be with nemo.

You don't know what will happen about your spine. If you worry about it now all that happens is that you will be experiencing the negative emotions NOW, when you don't need to. At least there is now the opportunity to get you pain sorted out. Properly. So you can be a fit and active and pain-free mum to dd and nemo.

Are you in my house? Can you see me worrying for no good reason?

Bless you, you are lovely. And right of course. I was just a bit shocked that there was actually something wrong with me, something there IYSWIM. It's been so long, I was begining to think I was making it all up!

Thank you xx

Off out for a stroll with the wolf and Nemo xx

Mouse - I often feel that I don't say anything helpful to you about your struggles with nemo and your own health, it's not because I don't care it's because I don't know what to say. Just know that I'm thinking of you and wishing you lots of luck xx

Indie just to add to all the other Babes I am outraged by their archaic opinions. You have created your own family with DP and DT, so concentrate on nurturing this family (and not drinking is a big part of that) and cast off the old one. You have shown yourself to be the bigger and better person with your concern for your Dad but they are too ignorant to see your qualities.

Thank you Golly.

I guess now I know that there is something wrong, something there, I can work towards getting better.

For the last 2.5 years, it's just been 'pain'. No reason, no diagnosis, just aches and pains and tiredness.

This might sound daft but I'm pleased that he could see a problem. I have days when I wonder if it's all in my head, psychosymatic (sp?), like I'm so used to being in pain, there must be something wrong with me!

Silly Moouse

Has anyone heard from Luci or Ruby recently?

Evening All

I am SICK, I don't do Sick. This is not good

Cold and shivery, sore throat and general unwellness.

Coughs and splutters.

Hope you feel better soon bafana have a lemsip and cuddle up under the duvet

Glad they found out what is wrong mouse at least you can consider the options of how to fix it instead of just being in pain.

I feel a bit down tonight, no special reason but before it would have sent me straight for the wine. I bought a magazine instead and am planning dinner, ironing then early night for a bit of a read. Hope I perk up soon - this is dull, but I suppose being drunk is not any more exciting

xx

Sorry you're feeling pants sweets xx

coughing fit made much worse as now covered in a fine film of dettol

bubbles sometimes dull is good, dull does not lead to mornings of self loathing, remorse and general low self esteem in the morning .

Am cuddled under lounge blanket watching crap on tv. Have eaten a creme egg as well, and a hot cuppa .
Am not a good invalid .

Also had my hair cut and coloured today, but am not sure about the colour, so feeling a bit peed off about it!! I am sure in a couple of days I will love it, but am not sure it is what I asked for.

Bafana - I had my hair cut today too. Won't be coloured until next week or the week after.

I'm thinking a nice vibrant red. Like <a class="break-all" href="http://www.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=www.handbag.com/cm/handbaguk/images/GB/paul-mitchell.jpg&imgrefurl=www.handbag.com/hair/hairstyles/50-autumn-winter-2010-hairstyles&usg=__fcD9BPyKokCS-NVTdtDPOpNzWB8=&h=500&w=375&sz=39&hl=en&start=0&sig2=U2R7SrSYeBMzfxIJr_KFiA&zoom=1&tbnid=av0ivl2-GE8MsM:&tbnh=140&tbnw=105&ei=WhzxTZuNGoKXhQeT1Ngw&prev=/search%3Fq%3Dbright%2Bred%2Bshort%2Bhair%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1024%26bih%3D453%26gbv%3D2%26tbm%3Disch&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=692&vpy=54&dur=1106&hovh=259&hovw=194&tx=119&ty=118&page=1&ndsp=13&ved=1t:429,r:4,s:0&biw=1024&bih=453" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">THIS, what do we think?

tinybubbles what you call dull, others might look upon as blissful peace

is thurso around - is she watching a dvd and eating brie?

That is the colour that I wanted, have ended up with something alot darker than that, with blonde highlights as well. Just not as vibrant as I wanted really. So I love that, you have the bone structure and petite face to carry it off as well . I need to make sure I have makeup on so I dont look totally washed out. Probably not helped by feeling pants!!

Yes - Where is thurso?? Want to know movie she went for.

Hello babes,

Bless you for asking after me, I did wonder when I was up in the bath if you would all think I had gone off on one, and do you know I felt really protected thinking that you would care.

Actually Dc1 did come home in the end, so I went to pick them up, and because I think it was just the two of us, they stayed downstairs chatting, and we made dinner together.

My laptop is downstairs, very visible, so didn't want to break the moment by sitting on it (probably break the laptop if I really did that!), and of course didn't want anyone reading over my shoulder!

So, I've had a bath, Dc is in the shower, and has suggested that we watch a film together soon.

Strange thing, Dh just phoned, and when we said good-bye I burst into tears because I missed him so much .

oops got to go
love you xxxxx

Awww, thurso. How lovely that you cried. I guess somewhere under all of the brambles of real life, you are still in there and so is he. xx

Off to bed myself now Babes. Be back tomorrow at some point......

Have good evenings all. xx

Hmm, best laid plans....

Dc came down to say that they are watching a film in thier room, so back to my book, it's too late for me to watch a film now, anyway.

I did have a bit of a wobble at about 8 o'clock, but fairly fleetingly, and quite interestingly, or horrifyingly, couldn't face the idea of throwing the first one down, so that's what I do!!!!, it's strange how stopping to think for a minute makes you realize just how bizzarre that behaviour is.

Also I am very aware that I am on my own with Dc, 18 they may be, but I'm still Mum, if they get ill in the night; please no!

So, back to my tea and book, and maybe some cheese!
Sleep tight babes xxxxx

X posted Mousie Sleep tight sweet pea. xx

here you all are! been trying to catch up but can't so will just say a general hi to everyone. I am completely off the bus right now for no real reason other than i want to drink.And so I am. I know the drill, the health risks, the cost, the weight gain, the loathing etc etc and still i want to drink. Think I am a lost cause to be honest.
Can't recapture that feeling earlier in the year when i was determined to change and was doing so well.
Sorry.

Phew, just clicked on before I went to bed, and glad I did.

Ma YOU ARE NOT A LOST CAUSE! you may be drinking tonight, you may have done last night, you may tomorrow, but you are not a lost cause, because when you are ready to, you will recapture the feeling again, if you want to.

I think we all know that feeling of "blow it, I'm going to anyway", you are not the only one.

No need for sorries, please keep on posting whatever is on your mind.

Sending you love, speak tomorrow xxxx

Ma listen to thurso and Indie. Hugs my friend

Indie you have every bloody right to be angry at your family, I am angry at them for upsetting you my sweet!!

Sleep well all

Well it's early and I'm already 50 minutes into a train journey (waves to ma in the passing). As I was walking into the station this morning I had a really strong recollection of a similar journey about a year ago. After an evening of drinking (to help me sleep ), I had woken up late, no time to wash my hair. Arrived at the station feeling very grey and shaky. Forgot my mobile. Only caught my train by a whisker. Tried to rehydrate with peppermint tea (smell of other people's coffee and bacon was making me sick). Struggled for 2.5 hour train journey with waves of nausea. Arrived at meeting and gave a piss poor performance (I only got away with it because no-one else was actually very good). Back to station and a G&T (large) to 'celebrate' a days work. Several more on the train, with crisps. Drove home and opened a bottle of wine to 'relax'.

This morning I still hated getting up early but I had time for a shower, and to put some make-up on. I have all my business papers with me, and my phone. As I was into the station with at least 10 minutes to spare, I could feel the warmth of the sunshine on my back and appreciate a sunny morning. I've got peppermint tea, but I've already had coffee and banana on toast this morning before I left home. I'm not exactly looking forward to the meeting, but at least I know I've done the preparation for it. I have time to get online and read / send messages to a lovely group of computer friends who seem to understand exactly how I think, and who I can be honest with.

And I think: why on earth did I think that the first option was a good life? It wasa rubbish life, and I knew it at the time.

Have a good day all. I think I will. And I know that today, I will not be drinking.

venus
Fab post, sums up most of my life. Everything is so much less stressful these days. It was a rubbish life, and I am loving this one, even when it has it's bad moments!!!

Still feeling horrible and sick, but at work, so may as well try and get something productive done!!

Sun is shining, please could it shine into the weekend too!!

Love to all
Today I will not be drinking!!

Hello all, may I join in please?

I drink far, far too much, have piled on copious amounts of weight and generally am blah....so it's going to stop. I want to stop completely for a good while, I feel that me and my body need a bit of tlc...a few years ago this would have been a glass of red but now I think the bottles glass of red is now the problem.

So if all you lovely, clever people could give me hints and tips on how to go about this, I would be ever so grateful.

Hope its OK just to dive in.