The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Park Bench!

[HammerMouseOfHorrors]

Hello

I'm Mouse and one of the Brave Babes on the Battle Bus.

The bus is never full and you'll find a real mix of people on board, all with the same goal.

To take control of their drinking. Whether that's to stop completely or cut right down.

Everyone is welcome to get on the bus at any point. You will receive a warm welcome and plenty of support.

Some come meet the others.........

The journey so far.

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DTC

I know BBB, thankfully my eldest daughter was with me and basically took control of situation :)

[hgrin] desire

Mouse, am still embarassed about it , am such a blend into the background person that it amazes me that I have raised such confident children!

[hsmile]Morticia's top Rewards, I now have when I'm having a "Because I'm worth it" moment... Posh bubble bath (Molten Brown is heavenly), New Lipstick, A run (but I'm weird like that), a DVD, a long phone call, some new music, a new book, watch something hilarious on you tube or find the best bit's of just about any film on there, get a facial or do one at home, paint your nails. Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself if you really want to drink today??

why can't i shake off my gloom. Following wheezy toddler around who's unravelling loo roll, sticking hairbrushes in bin, hitting my laptop, fusing lights, got laundry to do, kitchen floor, and uselss husband hiding away pretending he's working with another unmakeable deadline. Please someone suggest something. I want to escape. Can't go anywhere with dd, as she is too ill, wheezing, spluttering, and she woke up early from nap owing to coughing. I'm so sorry i need a break i feel i'm at breaking point. I really don't know what to do. I feel a bit desperate.

how about some cooking, could you make some pastry or play dough for DD to bash mould, or chop up random veg to make healthy soup for lunch.
Is she too poorly for a walk/pushchair in fresh air- maybe window shopping or leaf kicking in the park?
Or cuddle up with a DVD,forget the cleaning you (or DH!) can do it at another time.

Sorry for disappearing. What you are saying makes so much sense, I'm just struggling to stop. Every morning I look in the bathroom mirror to check my eyes aren't going yellow :( and I hate myself for drinking, so why do I carry on? why do I enjoy that warm fuzzy feeling when I know its harming me?

i've made some soup. Am off for walk as suddenly quite mild so ok for her i think. Good idea about play dough. Thanks x

loopy how long does the warm fuzzy feeling last? And if you're honest with yourself, doesn't it get replaced pretty quickly with an endless desperate cgasing of that feeling.

Really no different from cocaine or, i imagine, heroin

Hello, have you room for one more? I intend to read this thread and some previous ones for inspiriation. I need to stop drinking, not cut down, just stop :(

There is so much to tell but im too ashamed, embaressment is what has stopped me going to AA (i went once but found it excruciating) My DH of 2 years is worried about me, i am worried about me - i have 4 beautiful children to live for and if i dont stop drinking i wont be around for them.

Its not all day everyday. I go through periods where i will only drink once in a week or even two but it is very hard. Once i get a 'im going to drink tonight' vibe in my head i cant get rid of it. My DH doesnt really drink very much at all, when we met he smoked copious amounts of cannabis though and gave that up for me - i feel very lucky but also very sad that i dont have the same discipline. We have a toddler and i have older DS's from previous relationship they all deserve better from me.

I was diagnosed type 2 diabetic two years ago, i cant seem to loose the weight that i so deperately need to, i cant seem to stop drinking either and i feel i really need to get my life on track and i know that first and foremost drinking is at the root of that.

So im hoping you will have me on your battle bus and its taken alot for me to type all of this - i have had this problem since i was 16 and im nearly 39, thats an awfully long time, i hope to get all of the inspiration to get me on my way from reading back over this thread and see how far you have all come :)

It lasts the whole night, until I wake in the morning and feel guilty and dirty coz I know I am wrong for drinking. It's the mornings when I promise myself I won't drink that night but as the day goes on I find myself looking for excuses to drink, IE, I'm feeling really stressed or something.

It's quite scary the amount i can drink and still be in control in the way that I'm not falling over drunk or being sick etc.

Welcome GTTVH. I only joined the other day myself and I can understand your feeling of shame. I know how hard writing it down is too, it makes the problem 'real'

loopy if you were stuck inside because of some terror threat or something, for a week, wat would you do once you'd run out of alcohol?

welcome goingtosucceed! Hello. X

Well I'd have to get on with it and distract myself I suppose...

welcomeddtrh Hop on board and find a comfy seat.

christi hope you manage to get out for the walk....When you get back can you make one room in the house look really nice and cosy, Light some candles....frankincense oil in a burner is really good for wheezy little ones - than just snuggle up for a bit, and have a sofa tea.
xx

Good question, tac.

Hello to GTS. What are you going to be doing today, and tonight?

(TAC, what about the Chile miners? How did they manage? I think I read that they requested alcohol and tobacco in the early days).

Loopy, just today? OK? Just today and tomorrow you will be talking about yesterday. What will you be saying tomorrow? Are you looking after yourself? A la Morticia? It is mood management. Just today. 8 hours left to enjoy/endure/enjoy.

Thanks for the kind welcome everyone :)

loopy was just going to say you are'nt the only one who can drink an inordinate amount and still be upright. Yesterdays bender was 3 bottles of wine and a quarter of a bottle of Dark Rum i was pretty pissed but then again i always am.

I have never been able to understand how people drink for the taste of alcohol - my DH is just like that just one beer will do whereas i would rather drink nothing than one glass of wine.

I too check the mirror for eye yellowing and i get pain when i have been drinking like a dull ache under my right rib - i know its my liver but clearly alcohol appears to be more important to me. Its not im going to make sure of that.

I know i can do it - i did it a few weeks ago and went two weeks without a drink, im going to have to avoid going out to pubs and parties ect for a while as i wont be able to trust myself, ive never understood people who say they dont need a drink to have a laugh :(

christi, like witchety i hope your walk has cleared your head a little and you feel a bit happier - being stuck in with a poorly toddler is no joke i think some hot chocolate and a snuggle with DD is definately in order.

Once again thanks for the kind welcome.

just spilt a kilo pack of spaghetti all over the kitchen floor, because DH has opened the WRONG end. Anyone want to play pick up sticks?

welcome goingtosucceed! Hello. X

afternoon, must go and make some lunch in a mo, im starving!!, anyway

WELCOME GTTRH!!! , how lovley that you trusted us enough to post!! [hsmile], i promise you, the first few weeks are the hardest, its no use me dressing it up, the next 3 or 4 weeks you are proberbly going to feel like absolute shit!, AH, BUT THEN, EVERYTHING starts to become just that little bit easier [hsmile], so, one day at a time, dont over think it, dont worry about next week or the week after, just TODAY!

as, TODAY WE WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!

JUST FOR TODAY!!

back later babes!!

Move down the bus please Brave Babes.

Make room back there Christi. Wasindie legs off that seat, you know the rules.

Make room for *goingto& please.

Hello goingto, welcome on board. [hsmile]

i think the chilean miners all did so well and came up in such a state of fitness becaue they hadn't drunk or smoked!

I have managed to read a bit of allen carr and it's amazing, i can see why exdrinker has been recommending it. It is starting to change my view of alcohol already. I think everyone should give it a go! Itls called 'easy way to control alcohol'.

I can see why willpower as a means of stopping one imbibing this drug is useless, we have to see alcohol as a drug that's putting us in this pitiful position. loopy i know you say you enjoy alcohol, but don't you think you're just satisying your addiction. Do you say to a shaking, sweating heroin user, 'wow, i think you should inject yourself again as heroin is just magic at stopping those sweats and shakes and stresses of the day!'? We can easily see from the outside as non-heroin takers the problem. What do you think a non-drinker thins when he looks at the likes of us?

"why do I enjoy that warm fuzzy feeling when I know its harming me?"

Be very clear with yourself - do you enjoy that feeling after the first drink or two, or do you xconsistently enjoy it throughout the whole bottle of brandy? Or have you already forgotten it by the time the third drink is in the glass?

Lots of people enjoy that feeling. Then, once they've got it, they stop. The alcohol then wears off slowly and, because they drink in the evening, before that happens completely, they're in bed.

In your case, I am going to guess that you continue long after the effect is set up, because you struggle to stop once you've started.

How does that sound?