Hi, hope there's room on here for another one! Firstly congratulations to you all on your pregnancies. I've been lurking and think the positivity and support on this thread is brilliant.
A bit about me... lost first baby to MMC in August. (Was meant to be 12 weeks but baby died at 8). After 2 attempts at medical management I had an ERPC and generally dealt with it all ok although really struggled with the fact that I had no idea something was wrong.
Fast forward to end of December and I got another positive test which I'm really happy about but absolutely petrified and just have a terrible feeling that something is wrong.
Clear blue digital didn't go to 3+ until 6+2 so panicking that my hcg levels aren't progressing. Zero symptoms is really not helping so I went to GP yesterday and they agreed to run bloods. Yesterday's came back at 5500ish and GP said they're "really high". Follow up test on Monday to see if any progression.
Only I've done the worst thing and googled it and 5500 is on the really low side for 6+5 weeks so now I'm back to worrying.
Logically I know that the levels themselves don't matter, everyone is different and thinking negatively won't change the outcome but I think I'm in self preservation mode as I can't deal with getting excited to then lose another baby.
Sorry that's a lot longer than I meant it to be but any tips on staying positive but not getting carried away with it all would be fab!