didn't go into work today
. M woke up at 3 and then I couldn't get back to sleep. I just can't deal with 30 teenagers with this amount of sleep though I may have dragged myself in if it wasn't for the after school meetings til 5 plus 3x expressing during all my free moments of the day. Feeling really guilty 
Though right now I have what I haven't had for a month - the house to myself for more than 5 mins. Since DH's been off work I don't get the house to myself (just me and M)at all, except for an hour when he's at his appointment. I love him, but right now I feel like I don't get anytime for my own head, or anytime with just me and M unless I head out without DH. DH's taken M round to his M&Ds and I am trying to relax (but failing because I feel too guilty about not being at work).
I can deal with going back to work and leaving M for 2 days a week, but it's not having ANY time on my own, without DH or work that's killing me at the moment. I know I shouldn't complain because there are so many of you getting much less sleep than me at the moment, but I feel like my head is so hectic. I'm doing everything at home which is not how DH and I work...we usually share our chores. How can I support DH while still keeping my own sanity?
Sorry for the whinge. Am going to have a quick blitz of the house so I feel better and then curl up on the sofa (as long as DH takes his time).