7th miscarriage looming..........

[oinker]

I had a scan yesterday which confirmed my worst fears.
Beanies HB slow and not correct size for gestation. This has happened so many times know.
I already take heparin and two baby aspirin.
Hospital refuse to put me on steroids because of my BMI.
I have alresdy lost so much weight to rule out my weight being an issue. I lost over 5st bringing me down to 13st.
I don't know what else to do.
I want to call it day and get my head around the fact I will never be a mum.
I really can't be bothered to go through this again. Nothing bloody works. The recurrent m/c clinic would quite happily just have me going through this time and time again. They are not actually doing anything to help. They have nothing more to offer me. What is the point on carrying on just for more failure?
I am at the clinic run by Lesley REAGAN in paddington. If they can't help no-one
can.
I can't keep doing this.....

Julez

How are you today hun.
I am thinking of you...

What's the next step for you?

Hey hun

Next step is MRI, just waiting on a phone call to go in...

Trying to block it all out tbh, dont want to think about it. .Had a good night out with my girlie friends last night, got drunk, danced all night

How are you doing?

I am back at work in the morning

Am sort of looking forward to it. It means I will no be thinking of going back to hospital all day.

Going to movies tonight. To see trying to get over Sarah ???? Not too sure of the title it is mean to be a hoot though..

I was out last night too except I was the designated driver Never mind

back on a strict diet as of tomorrow. H to look forward to at the end of May..

..........didn't want to leave you guessing ABOUT WHAT H MEANT.........

HOLIDAY

Ohh A Holiday!!!! I have a friend comign to stay at the end of May we are dress shopping (bridesmaid and me!) then another night out!!!

Going down south next weekend to stay with my dad for a long weekend, taking the boys to longleat, bournmouth

Also, My friend is PA to the director at DP's work, she has roped me into organising a weekend summer ball type thing in a big castle for July so I have lots to look forward to

Just wanna get this big cloud of worry lifted off me still no word from hospital, Have to take DS1 to docs in the morning then I will give them a ring see if I can get somewhere...