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7th miscarriage looming..........

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oinker · 28/02/2008 11:28

I had a scan yesterday which confirmed my worst fears.
Beanies HB slow and not correct size for gestation. This has happened so many times know.
I already take heparin and two baby aspirin.
Hospital refuse to put me on steroids because of my BMI.
I have alresdy lost so much weight to rule out my weight being an issue. I lost over 5st bringing me down to 13st.
I don't know what else to do.
I want to call it day and get my head around the fact I will never be a mum.
I really can't be bothered to go through this again. Nothing bloody works. The recurrent m/c clinic would quite happily just have me going through this time and time again. They are not actually doing anything to help. They have nothing more to offer me. What is the point on carrying on just for more failure?
I am at the clinic run by Lesley REAGAN in paddington. If they can't help no-one
can.
I can't keep doing this.....

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theheadgirl · 05/03/2008 19:00

Oinker {{{{{}}}}}
Will you be scanned soon?

FAWKEOFF · 05/03/2008 19:04

(((((oinker)))))) get in touch with the epau tomorrow and ask them to see you....am praying your lil beenie hold on x

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oinker · 05/03/2008 19:39

I have a scan booked for wednesday morning. No point in going to EPU before then. I may as well just wait. There is nothing that can be done anyway...

I am OK, just a little dissapointed.

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CantSleepWontSleep · 05/03/2008 21:49

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Hoping it's maybe just the blood clot that you saw on the scan. Is that feasible?

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oinker · 06/03/2008 09:14

Passed a few clots during the night. Nothing recognisable though.
No cramping or pain. Am under strict instructions to stay in bed today.
It's a waiting game..
This whole thing is exact replica of last pregnancy

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OracleInaCoracle · 06/03/2008 11:29

oh oinker, im so sorry. wish i could help you x

theheadgirl · 06/03/2008 11:30

Waiting is awful for you. Sending hugs Oinker xx

Julezboo · 06/03/2008 13:26

Oh oinker Im so sorry Thinking of you. It may come as no comfort but with my DS i bled on and off till 20 weeks including clots

Im still waiting to start bleeding

Julezboo · 06/03/2008 13:27

can you get in for a quick scan tomorrow? Save all the waiting over the weekend ?

FAWKEOFF · 06/03/2008 14:30

((((((((huge hugs)))))))) i really do hope that everything turns out ok x

squilly · 07/03/2008 12:27

Oh Oinker. I'm so, so sorry to hear this. I just hope it's like Julezboo says...a bleeding thing that doesn't mean the end. It's just so awful when you've been there before.. especially with such regularlity!

Try to get an early scan sorted. It's sometimes best to know what you're dealing with and either put your mind at rest (as much as it can be in these circumstances) or at least gives you a definite outcome that you can focus on.

My heart bleeds for you, even though I don't know you and it's making the hairs on the back of my neck stand up just thinking about what you're going through.

Whatever is happening, take care of yourself and don't beat yourself up for feeling scared/down/crap...whatever. Let other people spoil you and look after you and take care. I'm still hoping for the best though...

xx

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oinker · 07/03/2008 19:28

Squilly,

You are so sweet.

Julez, How are you? )))))HUGS(((((((

Thanks to all of you for your messages.

Clots stopped but I have a steady slow flow of red blood.

I am focussing on the future. I honestly beleive this pregnancy is over and am just waiting for the confirmation.
I am definately going to do the steroids.
I spoke to the prof about it the other day. Ididn't say I was going to self medicate but he answered all my questions. Told me what dosage he would give me and for how long.

He mentioned that they do no trials at St MAry's, therefore no testing is done for the NKCells. They just go ahead and prescribe the steroids. There are no follow ups done onlythe weekly scans. No blood tests,
nothing. This suits me cos that way they would not no I am taking them. If all went to plan I would tell them at 3months.

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CantSleepWontSleep · 07/03/2008 20:41

Well it sounds like you have his blessing then Oinker, and he maybe realises what you have planned, but can't ask officially.

If this pregnancy is over, then very best of luck next time. I'm guessing you're quite good at the conception side of things given the number of m/cs you've managed to rack up?

Julez - how are you doing now? Has the bleeding started yet?

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oinker · 08/03/2008 08:18

Cantsleepwontsleep (love the name by the way)
You're right.........that's xactly what I thought. These people are highly educated..they know exactly what they're doing, what they're saying and who to.. (DESPERATE WOMEN)
Anyway, with regards to getting pregnant easily..I have read that this is a classic sign of HUGHES SYNDROME... It's a bloody curse...It's a no win situation.

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Julezboo · 08/03/2008 17:46

Hey all..

No bleeding yet, getting pretty pissed off with waiting now...Im still being sick alot too

Oinker Im so sorry for you
I do hope they give you steroids next time.

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oinker · 09/03/2008 08:57

Julez,

Isn't such a long delay odd... And you still have the sickness I would have thought it had started to calm down a bit.....
Have you tried the method I suggested?

I have a steady flow of red... not enough for pads though...No cramps..nothing..mind you I suppose I stil have symptoms...My boobs are killing me still, if anyhting, much more than before..
I really just want my hospital appointment now, just so's I can crack on with my plans..Diet etc....

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Julezboo · 09/03/2008 09:34

We did oinker nothing! I actually had 5 mins relieve this morning but then i had a drink and started the sickness again...

Got to ring the hospital tomorrow, Im off up north on tuesday for a family funeral so need to put hospital off till i get back

Julezboo · 09/03/2008 09:35

*relief

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oinker · 09/03/2008 10:41

Oooohhhhhhhhhhh...........ODD!

Is there any chance the hospital have made a mistake? Did you see the scan for yourself?

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Julezboo · 10/03/2008 11:00

Hi oinker

How are you doing today? What time is your scan?

I didnt see the screen when i had my last one so who knows, I know not to get my hopes up though Just hate all the waiting around x

orangehead · 10/03/2008 11:15

Only just seen this thread, thinking of you both oinker and julez.

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oinker · 11/03/2008 09:39

I have my scan tomorrow at 0900.
Have had bleeding and some small clots since the last one. I am just waiting for confirmation of the inevitable. Doc has just signed me off for another 3 weeks.
Will take that time to get back on track with slimming and exercising.
My 40th is approaching fast...4 weeks away I have nothing planned yet have had too much to deal with.

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trace2 · 11/03/2008 10:00

oinker and Julezboo thinking and praying for you both((hugs))

Julezboo · 11/03/2008 14:07

I finally got through to the hospital

They dont want to see me till the 25th so i guess its safe for me to wait it out a bit longer!

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oinker · 11/03/2008 16:35

Julez,

That's a long wait.... Have you still had no sign? Has the sickness gone yet?

Mind you my consultant did mention to me that he would have me wait two weeks and if no change in that he would advise a d&c.

I don't reckon that will be necessary with me.

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