7th miscarriage looming..........

[oinker]

I had a scan yesterday which confirmed my worst fears.
Beanies HB slow and not correct size for gestation. This has happened so many times know.
I already take heparin and two baby aspirin.
Hospital refuse to put me on steroids because of my BMI.
I have alresdy lost so much weight to rule out my weight being an issue. I lost over 5st bringing me down to 13st.
I don't know what else to do.
I want to call it day and get my head around the fact I will never be a mum.
I really can't be bothered to go through this again. Nothing bloody works. The recurrent m/c clinic would quite happily just have me going through this time and time again. They are not actually doing anything to help. They have nothing more to offer me. What is the point on carrying on just for more failure?
I am at the clinic run by Lesley REAGAN in paddington. If they can't help no-one
can.
I can't keep doing this.....

julez glad you are Ok and everything went well.
Don't overdo it though take some time out.

I am trying to sort out a weekend away for me and DH. Would love somewhere warmer than here...
Whatever I do I know that I will be out of here this weekend. I NEED SOME FRESH AIR AND WARM SUNSHINE...........

Ohh sounds lovely!!! Wish we could do the same!!

I might surprise DP this weekend with a night away somewhere!

Ooh, I've always fancied Reijkavic (but can't spell it!) - maybe you could go there and tell me lots of lovely things about it next week.

Glad the op went ok Julez, and that the physical side of it is now over.

Shall I make you laugh with how pathetic I was today? I went for my glucose tolerance test, and managed to not only pass out, but then throw up 10 times afterwards, and piss myself on the way home whilst throwing up . They had never seen anyone be quite so ill from having fasting bloods, and needless to say had to cancel the test as I'd chucked up the glucose drink! What a wimp!

CSWS I did that with my DS, threw up the drink afterwards, total waste of time. Its horrid though isnt it

CSWS

How funny !!!!

Well, I have booked.............

4 nights in a sap and wellness hotel in Menorca.... I am soooooooooooooo looking forward to it.

I have just had to fob work off as the boss wanted to come over and visit....

Not telling them I am going away if the sun is out in Spain and I get a tan will tell them I have been on the sun bed.....

Whoops not 2 star...... 4 star

sounds lovely oinker

Crappy luck hits again, been in hospital for a few hours, i have a womb infection, goodo

julez really sorry to hear about your infection. make sure you take all the meds they throw at you and rest loads. sending lots of get well soon wishes

Julez.......

How are you hun?
I really hope everything has cleared up now.

I have my appointment in the morning and will be scanned again. Hopefully everything will be cleared up. If not it's an ERPC for me..................

Anyway, I had a really great time in Spain. The weather was great and so was the hotel and more importantly the food. It was such a great break........... Got quite depressed before coming home...

Glad you had a good time oinker.

Im ok, not great tbh, infection really hit me, i was out of it for two days, Im up and about now, but everytime i stand up the bleeding is awful not sure if its normal. I cant understand why im losing so much after an ERPC ?

Hope you wont need the D&C

Julez..........

You should not be bleeding that much. You should contact the hospital. Make sure you speak to someone ASAP.

Unfortunately I have to have the D&C. There has be no change. I am booked in for the 16th. I am not happy, I really did not want this, but I have to be sensible. Prof was really understanding but he said he had to advise me to have it otherwise it could cause infection and unecessary future problems.............

Well, it is here.......... Am 40 tomorrow... I can't beleive it..

sorry you have to have another D*C

Im so fucking fed up of this, sorry for language, I have to go back up the hospital this morning, bleeding is never ending, I am in agony. Argued with DP, fell out with friends, struggling looking after DS I wanna move back home near to my mum where I will get the help I need

Hello... i had a missed miscarriage and have PCOS and was given a drug called Dupahston ( used to prevent miscarriges?) for my current pregnancy.

Has anyone heard of this drug or are taking it?

Sorry Ash I havnt heard of it.

Forgot to namecahnge back yesterday oops

Had my scan yesterday morning the Mole had regerated itself they said, HCG went back up, i started feeling sick again.

Had my second ERPC last night around 9pm, DP came and got me this morning, boys are off elsewhere so Im in bed resting, feeling ok, tired, exhausted, fed up, I really have had enough with this whole pregnancy. I so very much want to say to DP "lets never get pregnant again" But then I see friends babies, picutres of babies and I cant bare the thought of it.

I know its all fresh in my mind, and boy did it hit me yesterday, I snapped at everyone, cried all day, I keep thinking I have been through enough why do I have to keep going through this. When I found out with this pg I ws shocked and so not ready, but now I want another baby. Even though DS is still a baby. We will wait a year or so before making the final decsion I just hate that I do have to make the decision Im only 26 I should have years left before I need to make it

Feeling really really low today

Oh Julez,
Am sooooooooooooooo pissed off with myself for nt logging on sooner. Sorry for not being here for you to chat to.
So sorry you are having to go through all of this. I can't beleive you ahve had to had a second ERPC. There's me moaning and banging on about not wanting one. What a bloody nightmare. Hun, I really hope this is all cleared up now.
I have been tucked up sorting out and getting over my 40th birthday party. It took my mind of things. I am dreading thursday. Have my appointment at 0700. Like you I just want some normality. I have enjoyed not popping the folic acid. I don't intend taking it again until at least july.............

Sending you loads of hugs.........

Ash,

Sorry I have not heard of this drug either.

Try googling it or putting it the mumsnet search engine. There may be a thread with it in

GOODLUCK

ASH

Just did the search on mumsnet.

There are about six mentions of the drug on there. They all seem to relate to heavy periods ??????

Oinker dont be sorry hun! I picked up the next day, Id just had enough, even the doctor got screamed at lol!

Im feeling alot better! I even enjoyed doing housework today

Did you enjoy your party?

Good Luck for Thurs If I dont manage to get on before...

Have 4 weeks worth of washing and cleaning to be doing, DP cant be expected to turn the washing machine on

You sound a lot brighter.

Don't rush into it all though.... Take it easy.......

I'm quite lucky with DH he is a good house keeper. He does give me the occassional lok though.......... (get of your arse and do something) I have been quite lazy recently. I think I have a good excuse though !!!!!!!!

NEW Waking the Dead is on now........

Must dash

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Good Luck for tomorrow hun xx Will be thinking of you xxx

Oinker
So sorry hun. Hope everything works out as best it can. It's been so long since I was on here.
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Anytime you need me, pop me an email x

Oinker, was checking in yesterday. Im hoping you have had D&C now, will be thinking of you xx

Im off back to the hospital today, scan yesterday showed a mass embedded in my uterus muscles and scar tissue, the big C word was mentioned and also they kept asking if I was done having kids Was in a horrible state yesterday, my mum is here now, god love her she drove 200 miles to be with me for a few days.. Im a complete mess!

Surgery is looking likely to remove the mass so either way hysterectomy or not there will be damage Im just so devastated

Oh Julez, I'm so sorry. Been a while since I checked this thread, so am very sorry to find things still going so badly for both you and Oinker.

Best of luck at the hospital today. Really hope it turns out not to be as serious as you are fearing.

Julez - so sorry to read this - how awful for you. Hoping for better news than you expect. Take care.

Julez

Life is so cruel. I pray that this will only be a blip and nothing serious. Your mum sounds such a darling. Please take some time out and remember that we can all jump to conclusions. Not knowing is what scares us. Please wait for the facts before getting yourself into a state. Easier said than done I know. I'm a fine one to be dishing out the advice about not being scared. Look at me, LITTLE MISS POOPY PANTS . But please try hun.
I assume they will be doing further tests before any kind of surgery.

I will be checking this thread so just update this one hun when you have time.
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