course you are sick of it love - its a crappy place to be. just try and do whatever it takes to get through each day or chunk of a day - to make the time pass until you feel better. you will feel better. its just bloody hard holding on until you do feel better. you are such a fab person and friend - but you probably won't believe it who has just had some horrendous luck and lived among people who wouldn't/couldn't appreciate you
i'll e-mail my phone number to your on your MSN addy. sorry i can't think of anything more that would help