The mind numbing boredom of infertility III

[icy121]

Are you Barren & Bored? You've come to the right place!

We do: swearing, empathy, bitterness, tears, sardonic laughter, glittery shit and mocking idiots who know nothing jon snow.

We don't do: baby dust, relentless positivity, "u ok hun", "I had a friend who..", pithy advice or sentimentality generally.

Previous threads 1 and 2.

Now that you've got all that down, welcome to the barren ghetto.

So sorry, Bean. Take the time you need to rest and feel what you feel.

bean so sorry to hear that, you must be feeling like shit right now.

I am preparing for the disappointment that's to come, 6days post ET and yes I caved in and tested this morning because I'm stupid and I'm feeling nothing but pre menstrual. The only difference from any other month is that so far, I have had absolutely no bleed. Not even a smidge and that never happens! so I guess the progesterone works.
Gets me thinking, if my issues all along have been a dip in progesterone after ovulation perhaps I should have a few months of using it without any other treatment, I could cash in the px the clinic gave me.. Or is this just a complete waste of time I wonder..

Anyway, hey to everyone else, old and new.

Oh total dog shit bean I know it doesn't mean much but really sorry. I too wouldn't go into the clinic. Have the biggest when you get home from work.
zenie sorry you find yourself here but a big welcome. I cannot imagine what your family have been through lately. You seem tough enough to stick us out. We'll fling shite at you to cheer you up and we won't beat around the bush with baby dust/glitter.
Hello laura sounds like those little twins are robbing all your goodness and making you sick! Isn't that a good sign of a healthy pregnancy? Please keep us posted, even when you get really really plump ☺️ Just like pumpingiron
GL for tmz vixx
icy any chance you will get your hand on BCP and get the ball rolling a bit quicker?
peop how as the scan? Was you correct?

Hope you manage to get through the week without any dickheads ruining it for you.
(Big ask, I know)

Sorry to hear that bean

bean sorry to hear that and hope there was much and when you got home.

My scan was fine - I still have the cyst but it hasn't grown so I am good to go. Heading home now to attempt my first stabbing. Was going to get himself to do it but have to go away with work for a couple of days so will have to be brave and ignore the horrible needle....

Nearly didn't get that far as the clinic decided today was the day to tell me my blood test results are too old (?) and I had to have a new virology one done or they couldn't treat me....apparently they should have been done again in March but I somehow managed to have 3 appointments without them realising...

Bean - sorry to hear that, nothing to make you feel better, just sending thoughts and frustrated howling at the moon.

This:
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/2644194-To-expect-my-friend-to-show-interest-in-my-baby?pg=1&order=

Op has a new baby. Her barren pcos mate has backed off. Barren mate has had treatment....: tbf the op did back down and admitted twice she was being a prize cunt (my words) but wow....WOW!!

Yes, icy, I saw that thread too. OMFG!!!

Holy fuckbadgers- that thread!!

Icy - that thread! I couldn't even read it all. I was in tears imagining how her friend must be feeling and the thought of receiving a sarky message when all she's doing is trying to survive it.
Ferrules just don't get it do they. Oh what life must be like just to have sex and get pregnant.
I hope the OP does read this thread just to try to understand a little more. Xx

I had to stop reading the thread. Awful.

Ferrules???? Ferrules obviously! Lol

Hi fiends! I was in the original thread but have been lurking along since - I've rejoined the fray as I'm really struggling to cope at the moment and finding it hard to myself out of bed. Before I say anything else I just want to say that you lot are all fucking awesome 🍹🍷🎊🎉

Me and DH are 4 years TTC, 4 unsuccessful ivf cycles last year which yielded 2 chemical pregnancies (fun!). Currently saving for another private round later this year and I'm having a second laparoscopy in July to try and sort my hideous endometriosis.

Around 25 friends, family members and colleagues have got instadiffed in the time we've been trying. DH 's brother and his wife had their second baby last night and DH absolutely fell apart when he got the text. His best friend and wife are expecting no.2 in September. Everywhere we go we're the awkward childless couple.

Just when we think we're pullng ourselves up to the surface, something happens to knock us back down again. Not coping very well to be honest, I'm desperately trying to drag myself out of bed for a client meeting but just want to go back to sleep.

Glittery dog shot to all xxxx

Oh and I agree, that thread yesterday was hideously upsetting. That is my worst nightmare, that all my painful efforts to keep in touch with my pregnant friends isn't eniugh, and they're bitching about me for 'not making enough effort'

Morning fiends.

So as expected it's all shit this morning. However in a way I'm relived. I knew it hadn't worked as I had no symptoms at all and so the last few days were torture. At least this way there are no more pessaries and we can figure out what goes next.

Oh Bean I'm so so sorry - I've been where you are and its fucking shit, no other way to put it. Are you off work today? and and for you xxxx

Nope I'm back at work. Wine in the fridge for tonight.

Welcome to the barren ghetto, Angelica. I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. We're in a similar position: I am 2wwaiting with "disappointing" embryos from my fourth cycle in 18 months. Everyone I know is PG or has a little one. I was baby bombed by my friend's dog the other day!! Hope you made it to your client meeting. I know how it can be to struggle to get out of bed. You are among friends here.

Bean - hugs to you. Hope the day goes quickly.

Hi, can I come and join you all please? I'm 42, and have had a bit of a rough TTC ride over the last 8 or 9 years. My first husband had undescended testes and therefore we had major fertility issues for a couple of years. The marriage ended as a result of the stress and inability to communicate through all of this. Roll on to today where my new DH and I have been TTC for over 2.5 years, without a glimmer of success. I've had two laparoscopies and hysteroscopies. During the first they found massive fibroids, so I went on to have an open myomectomy and it turns out the large fibroid wasn't a fibroid (although I had 4 smaller ones removed) I have adenomyosis. After healing from the op I got the go-ahead to try IVF. But during an aqua scan, they found adhesions in my uterus. So I went through the second laparoscopy and hysteroscopy. I finally started my first IVF cycle at the start of May. My EC was 17th, I had 4 follicles, but only 2 eggs, both fertilised and I had both put back as a 3DT on 20th. One embryo was a perfect 8 cells with no fragmentation and the second was 6 cells, with some fragmentation, but they thought it was worth putting it back too. I'm now 4DP 3DT. I'm on Utrogestan Vaginal 200mg 3 times a day at the moment...and getting a lot of cramps last night and today. Trying not to worry or be too hopeful, but it so hard. I know that the chances of this first cycle working are slim, with my age and egg quality against me....but also that any pregnancy is going to be difficult for me to carry to term due to the adenomyosis.
Anyhow, it would be lovely to join you ladies. Once upon a long ago, I was on the conception threads, but I haven't been able to look there for a few years and I'm happy that I've found this other place...although I do wish none of us needed to post here at all.

Wishing everyone the very best of TTC luck,

PetiteChouette x

bean massive hugs lovely. Hope you have ALL the and tonight

icy amazing work on the blasts, and FUCK ME you were restrained on that AIBU thread. She was unbelievably dense. It’s OK, though it’s nothing ‘sinister’. FFS. How’s the bloat?

Welcome and glitter shit to Angelica and Petite

Hope first stabbing went well Pea

So pleased about AF Potato - onwards and upwards

Trigger tonight for EC on Thu. 25 measurable follicles yesterday. Holy shit.

25 is brilliant banana! Good luck for egg collection. I've got everything crossed for you!

Go banana all the glittery dog shit for Thursday.

First stabbing went remarkably well. Acid test is tonight, on my own, in the hotel....

Welcome to newbies.

Old fiends and new fiends, I'll be back to catch up properly. Must check this awful thread out for myself.....I'll be back (in my best terminator voice)

Hi chouette and welcome. That is an EPIC journey to get here. Fingers crossed for this cycle. We're here for your highs and lows. And hoping you have a high pretty soon.

Icy I was reading I mouthed at that thread. The only redeeming grace was the number of people who seemed to "get" and have empathy for where the friend was coming from. Where are these people in my life????

I'm too angry with life in general to read that thread! Better avoided for me, I think!

Wow chouette what a journey. Best of luck.

sammylou hi! I was on a ttc thread with you, probably at least 18 months ago (though have nc now). Sorry to see you've graduated to this thread. Hope you're doing ok. Also - ferrules!

Just waiting to see my ivf nurse and having the sinking feeling that I was supposed to bring in a whole whack of paperwork. I was in hospital with my little one yesterday so my brain is a bit fried.

Oh angelica that sounds super tough. Be kind to yourself.

Good luck banana!

Zenzie - interesting... Can you pm me your previous name? Xx