The mind numbing boredom of infertility II

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PotatoesPastaAndBread Sun 28-Feb-16 10:29:04

This is a thread for peole who really want to get pregnant but can't, who have tried pretty much everything, and are really fucked off about it.

Have you ever nearly punched someone for advising you to "relax", "go on holiday" or "just get drunk - that's what we did"? Well then this is the thread for you.

You won't find much sentimentality here and there's no baby dust, but there is empathy, a lot of swearing and a surpirsing amount of glittery dog shit.

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Vixxfacee Sun 28-Feb-16 10:36:17

Hi everyone,

Can I join?

I have pcos and have been ttc for years. Had a miscarriage 4 years ago at 10 weeks. It's been 2 years since I started the ivf process with the NHS.

I had egg collection in October and had to wait until March (waiting list) until I could have my transfer.

They collected 28 eggs but 16 fertilised and out of those only 3 have made it to embryo. They are high quality.

I am currently on noristephene to induce a period and will stop taking it next week. I can call them on 1st day of period and I can start taking the drugs again on day 21.

This has been a hard slog and I am feeling so low with it all at the moment.

Biscuitsforbribes Sun 28-Feb-16 10:49:12

It worked! Hooray!

Welcome vixx, sounds like you've had a totally shit time of it no wonder you're feeling it at the moment! I'm not at that stage yet so hopefully someone will be along with the usual good advice, hang in there and vent away - you're in good company!

Biscuitsforbribes Sun 28-Feb-16 10:49:43

My resolution for this thread is to curb my excessive use of exclamation marks..

Vixxfacee Sun 28-Feb-16 11:05:36

Thank you.

The exclamation marks show enthusiasm grin

BipBippadotta Sun 28-Feb-16 11:06:41

Well done, Potatoes!

And welcome, Vixx & sorry you've had such an awful time. It all just takes so long, doesn't it. Not surprised at all you're feeling down. I think you're on a similar sort of treatment schedule to quite of a few of us on here at the moment so feel free to share your trials & tribulations.

PotatoesPastaAndBread Sun 28-Feb-16 11:37:43

Hurrah, goal one achieved: not cliquey. Welcome Vixx! Sorry you find yourself here, but we're glad to have you.

I'm back to work tomorrow after almost a fortnight off sick for the miscarriage. Having a nice day out with DH in London: sightseeing, lunch, wine.

I have to say work have been lovely. Time off no questions asked. My great boss got my team reporting into him so no one has bothered me with anything and he's offered a staggered start back, which I won't take but is a nice offer. Plus I'm only back a week then going on holiday for a week!

Have a good Sunday everyone.

Fractiousfractions Sun 28-Feb-16 11:53:48

Just checking in to the new thread. Thanks again potatoes and hi to Vixx, sorry you've has such a crappy time and are feeling low. That sounds like a really long drawn out process, that length of waiting would get to anyone.

My resolution for this thread is not to go AWOL when things get shit (as they inevitably will). And also to use fewer brackets.

Hope you're feeling ok about your return to work potatoes. I go back on Tuesday for one day (!) and then am off for 3 days holiday (planned before the IVF results). My work have also been great but I'm worried that their patience will start to wear thin with the repeated rounds that I think will be needed.

PotatoesPastaAndBread Sun 28-Feb-16 12:01:40

Hi fractious. I know what you mean about repeated rounds - I timed the last one with Xmas so the multiple afternoons/days off were disguised. Not sure what'll happen next time... And yes I hope we can help you if things get bad again, certainly I found the support from fellow militant barrens invaluable when things were at their worst.

Am just reviewing my punctuation to decide what resolution I need to make wink

BipBippadotta Sun 28-Feb-16 12:03:39

Potatoes I'm waving from across London & hope your return to work goes well.

Quick Q. Have had some spotting & am a bit confused. I'm not due for EC until Wednesday & clinic can't do it any sooner. Anyone know whether this is normal? Can't find anything on the internet apart from endless pink Babycenter forum chats with sparkles and tickers that I can't be arsed reading. I'm a bit worried that my follicles may have popped on their own.

sammylou1 Sun 28-Feb-16 14:01:02

Thanks for the new thread potatoes smile. Xx

karlafox Sun 28-Feb-16 16:25:37

Thanks for starting the new thread.

Welcome to vixx you'll get all the therapy you need on here! So stick with us and vent away.
happy/lazy Sunday afternoon everyone.

bip sorry I can't help, it's a pain in the arse all this unexpected spotting isn't it? it makes me only go to the toilet when I'm absolutely desperate for fear of seeing red, or pink or brown!!. and even then I only 'dab'.

Vixxfacee Sun 28-Feb-16 16:46:22

Thank you everyone. Which stage is everyone up to?

Fractiousfractions Sun 28-Feb-16 16:46:50

Sorry Bip, no experience of spotting before EC. Why do our bodies play such stressful games with us?! Hope you manage to find some info that puts your mind at rest, even if it is on the glittery pink ticker sites of doom.

Fractiousfractions Sun 28-Feb-16 16:48:08

Cross post Vixx I've just finished a cycle which ended in a chemical pregnancy. Trying again in May.

PotatoesPastaAndBread Sun 28-Feb-16 17:02:08

bip <<waves back>> I didn't spot before EC but I did think my ovaries were going to explode. I had the sharp pain I associate with ovulation, was worried they'd popped, but they hadn't.

karla it reminds me of something posted on the last thread about wearing dark knickers and buying dark toilet paper to stop the madness of constant checking for spotting!

Vixx I'm ttc 3 yrs. Never a bfp. Just had first cycle of ivf. BFP but miscarried at 8 weeks. Next step is debrief with clinic. Hopefully try again c. May/June. Got three embies in the freezer.

karlafox Sun 28-Feb-16 17:03:17

vixx I'm 35. TTC 2 years 3 months, had 3 cycles of IUI on NHS which failed so now starting the process of IVF (privately) due to poor ovarian reserve. Never a sniff of a BNF. Which is why I feel bitter and twisted at all times!

sammylou1 Sun 28-Feb-16 17:03:35

Hi vixx and welcome.

I had a fresh round of IVF back in July which ended after egg collection due to ohss. Got 5 blasts frozen though.
Since we have had an abandoned medicated round as I was too sick on the estrogen and 1 failed transfer from a natural round FET.

We are now on day 3 of medication for another frozen round. Xx

karlafox Sun 28-Feb-16 17:16:29

.. When I say BNF I obv's meant BFP.. See, I can't even bring myself to say the word! smile

MehMehM3h Sun 28-Feb-16 17:23:29

Thank you all for your kind words, it means a lot. It's a tough one, I am sad but glad my gran isn't suffering anymore. The really hard part is that it brings up grief that I haven't really dealt with. It was nice to be with family though.

Welcome Vixx. I'm 32 (33 in a couple or weeks!) And had our first ICSI round a couple of weeks ago. In the throes of the 2ww and am trying not to symptom spot (bit hard now that I'm cramping and spotting!). We've also been trying for around 3 yrs without a sniff of a bfp. It is shit but apparently persevering is worth it...we shall wait and see!

garlicbreathing Sun 28-Feb-16 17:29:11

Hi all,

I lurked on the other thread for a bit. I wondered if I could join you all as well?

I've been trying for 14months now, and I have my first appointment for a fertility clinic next month. I have been doing acupuncture since January with the hopes of regulating my very long and irregular cycles. It varies from 50 days to 84 days.

Pebbles086 Sun 28-Feb-16 17:54:37

I am liking our second home already!
Hi vixx you may have been on another thread with me TTC with PCOS? If not then apologies, if so, hello smile That long wait must have been awful for you. Stick with us and we'll do our best to help you through your next cycle. We throw glittery dog poo at eachother for luck.
bip has the spotting stopped? I have no experience in anything. Will you be able to speak to someone about it before EC?
potatoes sounds like a lovely way to spend the day before you go back to work. Hope the week goes well for you.

I use far too many !!!! and I hope a lot.... Maybe becuse that's all I have at the moment is hope. Hope for all of us. Surely it's better than babydust because that's just stupid....

PotatoesPastaAndBread Sun 28-Feb-16 18:52:12

Hi garlic and welcome. I have acupuncture too. I quite like it, I think it helped my ivf cycle and has helped with tiredness after I was diagnosed with under active thyroid.

Good luck with your first appointment - keep us updated on how it goes!

Pinkheels Sun 28-Feb-16 19:04:19

Marking my place- think I need copious amounts of glittery poop in my life! We've been trying for around 4 years, 2 failed IVF attempts under my belt and I'm at the stage of pure apathy/exhaustion/bitterness. Don't think DH knows how to help anymore so just plodding on. Planning a frozen cycle next month but don't really think I'm ready to go through it all again.
I've always blamed myself for not wanting to have children immediately after getting married but today I realised that the only time we were truly happy as a couple was the initial year and a half of ignorant bliss. Now it's all I think about and I'm fed up.

Biscuitsforbribes Sun 28-Feb-16 20:59:28

Hope Definately shits all over baby dust..

26, two years of failing, two years of pushing and pushing for any sort of treatment and referral. Worn out from the struggle and coming up against patronising medical professionals who see our ages and instantly disregard us. Now the cogs are in motion I'm foolishly pinning my hopes on this year...

Sunday night blues anyone? I've got a crazy busy week ahead, lots of court time due to my cases at work, lots of client appointments and a trip to Brussels for what I expect to be a two hour meeting. I'm worn out just typing it!

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