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[KurriKurri]

Hello ladies, - just taking the plastic wrapper off a brand new thread

Blimeys, we've had quite a weekend between us, from what I'm reading. Jane, agree with the others - time for yourself is hugely important.

Here, found out that my heart is now misfiring if I exercise. Probably another joy of how-much-herceptin-hates-me so it's back to the specialists pronto. Arrrghhhhhh!!!

Oh Amber that herceptin is so mean to you, we need to send the girls round and give him a stiff talking to.

Cat brought yet another frog in, but dh doesn't want me to shut the cat flap as cat would give himself concussion when he ran down the garden and found out it was shut, and he would be out with the big scareys with no escape route.

Hello again ladies,
I've checked in on you from time to time and glad to all the (not really)old faces present and correct!!
I can't help but still worry about these calcifications and I think I've found a new small lump.
To re-cap,in october I was told by consultant that he thought I had dcis but then the core biopsy came back begnin.I have a follow up mammogram in may.I have found some uk studies that say just having the calcifications,pre-menopause,is a risk factor but the consultant said although he was amazed at the result of biopsy, that begnin is begnin.
Also,my family history is really bad,I am in the highest risk catagory.(sp)
I hate surprises and like to know everything.I don't know why because I'm not a control-freak in any other area!!
Don't know what I'm hoping you could say to me but don't want to worry family with this.
Lovely to see you allstay well.

Hi 14k benign is good, not all lumps are cancerous. However likely it is the the new lump is benign, you are still going to worry about it until you get checked out. I think we all agree that the waiting and not knowing is the worst time so maybe don't wait till May, ask to be seen sooner. That said, I am worrying a lump in my other breast and think I probably just have a touch of paranoia, esp as the oncologist couldn't feel it a few weeks back... Hang around with us for distractions and let us know how you get on.

Bread just beeped. Brown with sunflower seeds, smells yummy!

hello again 14k - I would ask to be seen sooner,for your own peace of mind -is most likely to be benign but you'll worry until May otherwise and that's not good. Stick around for some distractions here,as jane says
amber - that herceptin certainly doesn't agree with you
figgy have seen pic of ds in smart clothes on fb- he looks very,very handsome- did he has a good time ?

14k - agree with Mas that sooner spot is best and it is most likely nothing to worry about. Amber am so sorry that you are still having such a rubbish time.

Dh and I sorely in need of coffee this am- mini gig Doing the only sleep on human thing which is good for her sleep , not so good for ours. We are meant to be going down to visit mil/bil today but may skip it if feel too done in (this wont go down well with midi gig who loves my bil family and particularly their dog )

figgy DS looks awesome in his prom suit. You must have been busting with pride! Hope he had a lovely time?

amber more Herceptin woes? Poor you

I am still coughing, so I can sympathise with you MAS. Quite bored of it now. . . Need a secret advert for MrMAS Kindle book somewhere!

jchoc your bread sounds yummy! What news on your mum? And DS? Sounds like you've got lots on your plate. Well done on the running thing. . . Very impressive!

smee how was your babysitting? Did you get a cuddle?! Thanks for reassurance about how normal all my feelings are. Does make it easy to know I'm not losing the plot, or being weak, even if I feel a bit pathetic and self indulgent. . .

kurri hope you are reconnected to the water system? Thanks for reassurance from you too. . . It does really help to read such sense from ladies in the know. Will go and talk to GP next week.

Had nice time with DSis. DS adores her, and she's really creative, so did lots of fab making stuff with him, which I am not very confident in doing. They spent a good chunk of yesterday making a castle out of shoe box, with loo roll turrets and everything! Was good distraction from everything else, so didn't have to think about oth stuff too much. . .

Happy to do a stint sitting on the paranoia box. Have a large cushion poised. . .

Hope everyone else is doing Ok is morning? Waves at topsy, gig, holsten, and anyone else out there this morning!

Morning all, and hello again 14k lovely to see you - sorry you are having worries though. I add my voice to the others and say ask them to see you sooner, - May is too long for you to worry about something. And I'd also ask about the monitoring - if you would like it to be more frequent, to see the onc. more regularly etc. when you get a chance to talk to him. Good luck, -stick around if you need handholding

amber - - herceptin is being so horrible to you, you must be so fed up, - you get through all the chemo and rads, and hope that the herceptin will be much more doable and let you get back to normality. It must be so frustrating for you to have all this to deal with still, when you've already had so much treatment. Lots of xx

Jane - hope your mum is a little better today. Bread sounds good

Morning MAS Morning Gig (or don't you really know whether its morning or night anymore? ) - great sympathies, I can't remember much about tiny babies, but I do remember the exhaustion. How do such tiny people manage to be in total charge of the household? Lucky for them they are so adorable

Hope DS2 had a wonderful prom Figgy

I had yet another awful dream (basically the usual stuff - me having to deal with dangerous situations, take care of lots of small children and dogs, and family. Last night we were having missiles shot at the house, Dad was there and kept trying to wander out of the house, and I was trying to persuade him to hide under the table!) I wake up feeling shattered, but I guess it is all stuff I need to work through somehow.

I think mum having her fall has set me off again, although she seems to be recovering well, and her GP phoned last week and was very cross she hadn't had her falls clinic appointment through, and badgered for them to give her one starting soon. She said she's looking forward to the clinic, - just to meet new people to talk to, she's very sociable, and feels a bit stuck in the house at the moment.

That so amazing, how quickly you all responded to me. Thank you. I'm just having a bit of a panic today.
I have a small problem though. I can't face telling my poor dh about new lump but I can't face going to breast clinic alone. And I'm crap at keeping secrets. I will keep you informed. And thanks again.

14k - any other friends or family who could go with you? or failing that worth ringing the BCN and explaining, she might be able to come and sit in with you if you think that would help.

Have been thinking of who else I could ask. One friend who I love would go to pieces, another one of my oldest friends doesn't do illness, other one is pregnant. Sister is in denial about our family history and doesn't even talk about it.
Sis in law would be good but lives 3hours away.
Oh I don't know!!!
First step is gp again anyway. I can do that on my own.
Btw, it's pouring here. Spoilt my long walk I was planning. Is it raining all over?

raining steadily here

14k hope you'll feel easier after seeing GP and perhaps be able to tell dh ?
Poor kk and awful dreams- bound to be churned up after your mum's fall.
How is your mum today jane ?
Sounds a lovely day with your sister ned
Am on cat injecting duties next week as parents away for a few days- busy week really all round. Dad has just been over to help dh mend the dining table (leg was falling off)

Raining here too - I'd planned a walk, - but it looks unlikely atm.

Ned - sounds like a fun day with your DSis - we have lost our water again, as the fitting DH bought for the tap broke while he was trying to fit it. He is not in the best of moods - much sighing and eye rolling!

Does cat mind his injections MAS - or is he used to them now?

I was just thinking about GreyLady (pranma) - I'm sure she and her DH are fine, but she's in Krakow isn't she?, and there's been a big train crash near there Hope everything is OK for them, and their plans haven't been disrupted.

greylady reported from Krakow yesterday on facebook- so all fine and dandy then at least- hope all is ok.
Snowing here !
Cat doesn't seem to notice injections as he's usually eating when we do them !

Oh good - thanks for that update MAS

Glad cat doesn't mind

There is snow reported on the hills near here too, we haven't any in the valley, yet. Mum will be home today, brother rang before I got chance to ring hosp. They couldn't find anything (new) wrong with her, so she will be back home soon and I will speak to her then. We are blaming the controller for the chair, if she fell asleep and pushed the rise button, that would explain how she got on the floor. I will go down soon, but rather not drive if I can avoid. Could delegate dh to visit on his way to Kent...

Glad the cat is ok with the injections. Ours is being a nuisance bringing frogs in and muddy pawprints. Think I will shut him in early today!

Afternoon all. Is there any bread left, Jchoc?

I've put a few photos on my Mumsnet profile and only opened it to my MN friends. I've added most of you so please let me know if you can't view them - I might have made a spelling mistake or something.

Yes, DS2 had a wonderful time last night with his friends. DH picked him up at 12 but didnt get home till nearly 1 and I was in bed by then. He danced the night away from what I gather.

14K, I agree with the others, the sooner you see your doctor and get another referral, the happier you will be to find out it's benign like the others.

Amber, grrrr about wobbly heartbeat. I hope it can be sorted.

Your sister sounds fab, Ned. Very artistical.

KK, dreams can be very cathartic even though they make us wake up feeling exhausted. It's a way of getting us to face our fears. I hope you sleep better tonight.

Just off to slam in the pork for tonight.

I hope you're all having a relaxing Sunday xx

Figgy - I can't get onto your profile atm But it sounds a pretty good night!

I've started winding down after doing various jobs today. Bit of painting, bit of knitting, DH watching the rugby, - pasta salad for tea I think.

Oh Amber. about your heart problems. How did you find that out?? sounds scary.

Jane, hope you've had a bit more reassuring news on your mum today. Old age is a bugger. Hope your DS opens up a bit - maybe over that yummy sounding bread.

Waving to l4k, sorry you're here again. Think the others are right, go get checked. Pesky paranoia can ruin your life. On your DH, will he be more hurt if you don't involve him? V.tricky though I know.

Figgy, your DS looks fantastic in his pics. Did you shed a tear or two?

Ned hope you're feeling okay. Definitely get to the GP if you're still feeling wobbly tomorrow. Dare I ask about your hair?? I think it's about now it starts to go. You take care now. xx

Kurri, that dream sounds exhausting! Wise way to look at it, as things needing to come out, but doesn't make it any easier. What on earth is a 'fall clinic'. I have visions of crash mats and old people being hurled around..?!

MAS, snow? Rain and more rain here. Forced DS into a walk, but we hightailed it home and now he and DH are watching the rugby.

Gig, hope you get more sleep tonight and that midi-Gig isn't too cross with you. Waving to anyone I've missed. I didn't get to cuddle the baby last night - I didn't even get to babysit, as they were too exhausted to go out! Went round anyway and drank wine and ate crisps with them. Was a lovely night. Mas yes it is baby Theo.

Last weekend went for a brisk walk...heart went out of rhythm for a few mins. Yesterday, same sort of brisk walk...same result. Grr.

We had snow here too.

Done a big autism access report! Hurrah! I shall celebrate by cooking spag bol.

Crickey Amber, can you actually feel the rhythm changing? That must be unnerving. Spag bol sounds excellent.

Poor amber medicinal spaghetti Bol definitely a good idea. Well done on getti g your report done.

smee no hair loss yet, but I'm expecting it this week. How will I know if it's imminently about to start going? Have Buffs poised. . .

Dad's cousin with secondary lung cancer with unknown primaries died yesterday . Feeling very callous because I am finding it hard to find room in my head to think about her too much. RIP Jess x x

Sorry to hear about your Dad's cousin Ned - but not surprising you are feeling emotional overload at the moment, don't beat yourself up.

amber - well done on completing reports, heart business sounds scary though

Smee - hope you've had a good weekend, but sorry you didn't get to cuddle baby Theo.

Falls clinic is where old people who have had a a few falls go to learn not to fall over - balance exercises and such I think.
I imagine groups of old folk chanting

'The first rule of Falls Clinic is you do not talk about Falls Clinic
The second rule of Falls Clinic is You do not talk about Falls Clinic' .........

Ned, heck re your Dad's cousin Don't feel bad about not feeling the right emotions about it...with the amount we've all been through/going through, anything's 'normal', I reckon.

Yup re heart, it's like when your heart misses a single beat and feels like it's suddenly jumped, but there's loads of them at totally random intervals one after the other for several minutes - really weird.