Fighting Our Way Back Up - the depression list thread!

[MathsMadMummy]

Thanks to ToccataAndFudge for the name

Right, so this is where those of us with depression can write our lists of daily achievements!

...hopefully tomorrow's list will be better than today's...

BBL definitely not annoying you are obviously going to have good and bad day.

TF - I know the thread you are talking about and I hide that one too as I suppose they could be talking also about how I have started a few threads to get help. But you do deserve to have help do not feel guilty for accepting it.

My plan for today is to go pick up this thing for the garden to help the drainage on the grass as it is like a swamp. Probably more painting and go out for coffee that is about it.

I am feeling really flat after my bad week, but I did see my counsellor yesterday and she is going to write to my gp to try and help so I feel better for that.

hmm not sure if it's the same one LMM - this was a direct attack on me

That isnt nice, I hate when people do that. The best part of MN is the support that people get that to me makes it all worthwhile.

Please do hide the thread and ignore, easier said than done.

BBL could you let me know a bit about vit B and omega oils? I didn't know they could help with depression, I'll give anything a go!

Little marshmallow glad things went well with counsellor always used to put me in a positive frame of mind too.

Just to update kids all fed most of them are dressed and I'm half dressed. Plan slowly working.

I've had breakfast (very rare for me unless 'm staying away from home and it's included in the price/given to me). DS3 is now dressed, DS1 and 2 are supposed to be finding their clothes .

I'm just having a coffee and fag before I get myself dressed and we venture into town.

I've just written two bits of correspondence that have been staring at me for ages and I just didn't come round to them. And I spent last night from 11pm until midnight ironing. All done yey.

Rest of the day:
Go easy on myself after yesterday's breakdown (although feel better for the support I got from dh, close friend and you lot of course .

Still so exhausted and stressed at thr thought of work again on Monday.

But today is today and the sun is shining. Taking ds to garden centre - wondering if I can cope with him in his walker and a trolley with plants - will see how busy it is I think.

Plant the new plants in their pots today or tomorrow.

Pick up some bits from supermarket.

Have tea at dear friends tonight.

I have to confess that before this happened to me I knew nothing at all about depression, in fact I realise now how ignorant I was (and how I think many people who haven't experienced depression are) and I've come to realise that it isn't just about having 'down' days all the time it is all about different moods and extremes of moods. It is much more complicated than just being 'down'. I've learnt so much in a short time and have huge amounts of respect for many of the people I've 'met' on these threads who have given me lots of advice at my lowest points, including you guys here. A friend of mine said to me recently 'you don't seem depressed, in fact you're quite normal most of the time' which really shocked me. I was really cross at first but then I thought about it and thought that she was just showing her ignorance about depression.

Buttons I started taking Magnesium OK tablets and omega 3,6,9 after posting on MN about how to cope with extreme moods assocated with PMT and someone recommended I try these. I had originally gone the GP with insomnia and anxiety in Jan and he'd diagnosed mild PND. He gave me ADs but they made the insomnia and anxiety worse so I stopped taking them. Then I started to notice that my depressive symptoms were much worse around the time I ovulated and 7-10 days before my period (I'd never had particularly bad PMT before DS3 was born). There is also a thread here about how vit Bs may have helped someone with manic depression. There's a bit about it on the internet too. I don't know much really, how scientific the evidence is, but surely worth a try if you think it might help. I really don't know. It is supposed to take a few weeks to start working and you have to keep taking them every day. I've been taking them just over a month now and, it might be early days to say this but, I feel much better and more on a level (less extreme moods) than I did before. It might be coincidence. It might be that I am just getting better anyway. Who knows? It seems to come in waves and at the moment each 'better' wave is bigger than the last and each 'worse' wave is smaller.

Can I come join you all please?

Dont want to intrude

rhksmum - of course you can - anyone welcome here (so long as they don't take a swipe at people on the thread who are having a "good day" or feeling a bit brighter when they post)

must go and get dressed, boys are now dressed and they're waiting for me........

If some one with depression can have a good day then that gives me hope, as right now as I only seem to be having bad days.
x

Thanks BBL I've suffered with depression since I was 13 (now 30)and was really lucky to get cognitive behavioural therapy 4 years ok that was a totally success, however after a messy ongoing divorce and exh going bankrupt, a special needs 4 yr old dd, then a new baby PND has set in. I'm lucky and have learnt the signs but it spirals so quickly between good to ok to suicidal in minutes. On AD's but due to breastfeeding very mild and can only be taken at night(which means I always forget). I'm thinking the vit B is worth a go so thanks again.

All of the kids(4) are up washed, dressed, fed and watered, washing on line and more in machine. Still waiting for food delievery but have spoken to dp and sorted row out. I may of been a little unreasonable and have apologised for being so, he on the other hand has also apologised for reacting to me the way he did. But our relationship is still relatively new (2 1/2 yrs) so it's all new for him and I can't expect him to be perfect as none of us are. Anyway I have the distinct feeling I'm rabbling so going to check washing and make a coffee in peace whilst ds is still napping.

Waves at rkhsmum - even more places to chat

Well we all have good and bad days and most of us to our credit hide the misery from all but our closest ones.

I am feeling that I need to be very careful with myself after yesterday, but so far day going well.

Took ds to the garden centre in his walking frame - helping him along and managing trolley with plants and people were so lovely - one old man took the trolley to the checkout for me and watched it til I got there and a young member of staff took it to the car for me so I could focus on ds, waited until I emptied it and took it back - made me feel good and positive!

Willsurvive that's good. The kindness of strangers and all that.

I'm taking DS3 into town after his nap. DS1 and DS2 don't want to come with me, they'd rather go to Curry's with DH to return our broken iron and get a new one. What fun.

I like the fact that we can all be totally honest here about how we are feeling without worrying too much about what other people think, reprecussions, etc.

oh it's all going wrong again

went and got the DS's hair cut...........to be told they've all got nits, got a scart to scart lead, got home and discovered I've actually got a scart to 2 scart lead (not sure if that makes a difference or not), but now I can't get the video connected to the TV and I've promised the boys 2 DVD's this afternoon (they should have had one yesterday afternoon but I then discovered I needed a lead).

Toccata try not to panic - no one has ever died of nits and it is lovely weather so let them play with water outside. You can cope with nits!

Are you panicking at having to go back to town for nits stuff? Just smother their hair in your best conditioner and combe through - much better.

no - I got the nit stuff in town when I was tere - thankfully got their haircut before I did anything else so popped into boots.

IT's the DVD thing, I told them yesterday I'd get the lovely new DVD player out and they cold watch a DVD (they haven't had a DVD player since around Christmas time), then discovered it didn't have a lead to connect to the TV so promised they could watch 2 of their new DVD's today

So bought one today,and I can't get it to work.

Tocca re nits, their the bain of my life the girls are always getting them it feels like conspiracy that as soon as I get rid their back again. Dvd thing is a nightmare I'm useless with those sorts of things is there anyone you can ask for help?

Willsurvivethis sounds like your day went ok, how nice of the people in the garden centre its a shame more people aren't like that.

I've had a pretty good day. Sorted out ds cot, fed kids on time, dp and i took them to the seafront and had a lovely walk and an ice cream, they all loved it and dp and I even managed to walk hand in hand! now getting ready for bedtime routine then i can do some work for an hour, ebay a few bits then watch a film.

Forgot to say rhksmum how was your day today?

Evening TF if you give me a shout later on I might be able to help you with your DVD player.

I have had an ok day went into Glasgow with my lodger for coffee and got an iPhone. Have also done the first coat of paint in the hall. I have been feeling really flat last couple of days some of it might be dread about next week not sure.

Alle - how did your date go last night ?

Buttons do you live by the sea? A walk by the sea holding hands sounds lovely Also, just curious, what sort of work do you do? I am freelance but still on maternity leave for another 2 weeks.

We're having my favourite tea tonight: spag bol.

hi all

How irritating that people on MN are getting at posters here for sounding occasionally OK...good grief.
LMM I think my date went well, at least he said he 'rather liked me'- got a text this morning but nothing further all day after I suggested meeting later in the week- we shall see eh? Feel very teenage about it all :S

Well in the teeth of all the MN posters who appear to be saying that depressives can never have nice times (or supposedly they were looking for attention beforehand, is that it? ) I had a great day. We had ds1 and my niece's party in the sun, it was fab and everyone had fun. Then got home, mowed the lawn, sowed a few seeds, kept temper with whiny ds1 after he woke up from post party nap.

BBL I also suffer from terrible, horrible PMS/PMDD so I'm going to try your method. Already taking women's vitamins, but my lifestyle and diet are very erratic at best...

TC a friend of mine who is a primary teacher has almost permanent nits! She is quite used to them now and says you don't notice them after a while YOur FB about the boys picking them out made me laugh.

oh seashore if you could CAT or FB me the name of the hypno CD, I'd like to give it a go...

Room for another? Having a really bad time today, went back to self harming, need a little support Just in time for my birthday, go me

Kaloki - you are more than welcome here . I am sorry you have gone back to sh I too know how it feels I managed 18 months but it is back for me to

Sending you a big hug