Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Hi all, not been on for a couple of days. How is everyone?xx

Hello! - I just wanted to say that I had a cranio-sacrotherapy (or cranio osteopathy) session yesterday and though very sceptical, I have had the first full night of uninterrupted sleep in almost two and a half years.
No bruxism, no panic or 'can't breathes'.
What a difference a good sleep makes!

Thats great gentleotter, I'm so glad it worked for you. I don't know anything about cranio osteopathy, is it on going?

I had vaguely heard of it and we decided to see if it worked for our 19 month old who never sleeps.
He had a session on Monday and has slept all night since his session.(even having naps in the afternoon which has never happened before).

I thought I'd try it too and was very surprised that I slept so well but also felt very relaxed after the session.
I've managed to cope with various rather unpleasant legal stuff today without having a cow/ complete collapse and feel calm.
Ds and I are going back next week for another session each.
The practitioner said he would leave it up to us to see if we felt we needed more treatment or not. One added bonus is that I feel that I have been given a brand new back.

Hi everyone, we all have been quiet for a few days x is everyone snowed in? Im not it hasnt laid at all here!

Had a crap 2 days bad news about dd, then her nursery has p**d me off and thinking about moving her to a different one, and dh came home yesterday and has been given 90 days notice from his job and then has to re-apply for his own job cos they are cutting back! At least i havent panicked cos mind is elsewhere, hope i stay strong

Sorry to hear all that mummytopebs. I hope your dd is ok, is it something to do with the tests she was having?

Sorry for your dp to, my dp has a meeting today to put his company into liquidation . I feel so sorry for him, he's worked so hard for the past 6 years, but its all gone wrong. I'm trying not to think of the financial implecations, just keep telling myself we'll be ok.

We've got a bit more snow, so the schools are closed again, and we've no tv as there's no satellite signal. Oh well

Hope you are feeling strong today xx

Hi all,
can I pop back to see you all.
have been feeling like I am spinning down again. I am taking time to work on the deeper issues but in the mean time I am trying to get to sleep my mind goes over and over again trying to make sense of a certain part of my life.

I keep trying to look past it - shake off the feeling - but again I can feel the blood pumping through my body all the time.

I am going to try to have a nap - but if anyone has pearls of wisdom I would love to hear them.

well have just made a tit of myself in the Dr's surgery - I went to pick up my repeat prescription and the lady said I already had one there that I hadn't picked up last month she tutted and said she would have to cancel one as she couldn't give me 2 months worth of tablets at once
I burst into tears and said sorry, I just couldn't stop sobbing

we have to go to a big party this weekend I think that is pressing my buttons, I must spend some time tomorrow morning sorting out clothes for me as I tend to remember to pack everything for the everyone else and get there to find that I have nothing to wear.

List of things to do today is so long - am really trying to remember to look at things in little chunks rather than as a whole.

Can't seem to stop the blood pumping so fast

How was the party in the end?

I can't get going today, ds has a temperature
and is very miserable. I have a sore throat and been having pains in my legs so my mind is in paranoia overdrive. I got upset this morning as I couldn't get through to the gp to make an appointment, all while trying to get dcs ready for school and stressing about who would have ds if I can get appontment. Finally got through and am seeing dr at 4pm, but am sat here driving myself mad that I have a clot.

Plus its raining

oh blissa - sorry to hear you are having a difficult day.

I had quite enjoyed rambling away to myself - NOT that I want you to go away at all!!!

Do you have a history of clots? I get pains in my legs alot - I always have - my Mum always just said they were growing pains.

I hope your throat feels better soon, have you been drinking enough?

It is raining here as well finally melting some of the snow. it looked so pretty bright white everywhere.

Hey ho, anyway got to go and give DS2 lunch before we go to messy play.
back later, let me know how you get on with the GP -

I don't know where everyone else has dissappeared to!

I had a pulminary embolism just before christmas and so am on blood thinners for the next few months. This is when my anxiety really kicked and I joined this thread. Although I know it's unlikely to be a clot I can't stop thinking what if it is. I had no DVT symptoms before my PE either. I saw the nurse last week who was very reassuring, but I woke up with new pains this morning that I want checked out. I let you know what he says.

Enjoy messy play x

Well the dr doesn't think it's anything to worry about. He had a good prod about and tried to reassure me. So I have to try and accept that, it could be muscular or a side effect of the warfarin. I feel a little bit better, but there's always that what if

Hi all on thread hope you ok!
Hi Blissa how you feeling now and how did gp go,hope you got the input/reassurance you need.
I just remembered i had painful leg after c.s. for my ds2 and had scan to detect dvt~i know i felt quite worked up so understand bit of what you're going thru
hope your leg feels better nowx

sorry xposts!!

Thanks morningsun, how are you?

I'm trying to stay positive, it's amazing how all these aches and pains mess with your head! x

phew - good to hear all is well with your leg.

I think when you are an anxious person things really can feel scarey. I have turned into a hypochondriac, so try to not go and see the doctor too much - but then panic that this time it is something real and I am ignoring it

Hi Morningsun

hi all. I have been norty and not been online much, but when i looked at 'thjreads I'm on' it didn't show anyone had posted since my last post, so I didnt come onto the thread to check! Sorry!
It's really snowing a lot now.Is it for you?
I had to go to town today and was keen to go, but I struggled to breathe and get out of the door. Went to the loo with upset tum a dozen times. I got to town ok though, but then panicked in Debenhams. I chanted (quietly) 'calm' and dropped my shoulders, and it did work more or less.
So i did what i needed to do and came home - before I have been poorly i have never had a problem with my endurance for shopping!
Got my counsellor tomorrow.
Work have been on the phone again and want to see me - only last week the counsellor said no, and they don't give in!
So that will be on Thursday..... That will a panicky day, won't need a crystal ball for that one.

Hi all, missed you moose. Well done for yesterday, I was a bit like that last week when I went into town, I felt like I was walking in a big bubble and really didn't want to be there. I just got what I wanted and came home. I hope your counselling session goes well today.

I feel like a hypochondriac all the time, Greyskull, everyday I feel a new pain and convince myself its something awful. I feel so sorry for my dp, every evening he walks in and asks how I feel and I bet he ends up regretting it!

Stressing a bit about our finances at the mo, dp's business is going to be put into liquidation. I just tried to apply for a credit card to transfer my balance to get 0% and they've rejected it as my current card is £12 over its limit. This is due to me being in hospital and missing a payment. Would just be nice to have some good news for a change

hi all!
moose hope your counselling goes ok today
blissa~terrible news about your dps business hopefully you can get some support on here if your dp has a lot on as well as you

Thanks morningsun. I feel really bad for him at the moment, he's worked so hard for the past 7 years and everythings gone wrong

hi all can i join in with you ladies?
im on ad's about 9 weeks so far and altho
ugh im much better than i was i still get anxious and there doesnt seem to be a rhyme or reason to it
sunday i felt well and done lots of housework and the sun was ou
t i cooked a roast,kids had some mates over to play then monday and today i just feel anxious again,i find it really hard to relax -id love to just sit down and watch t.v or have a nap ds permitting
instead i just hang around on the pc all day
am going to my first counselling session on thursday and its playing on my mind a bit
just wanted to chat to people who know how i feel

hello all, and feel free to join us Candyxx

My counselling was good today, she says I have done wel. I keep a diary of goods and nads for every day, and i can see i have made progress.

But i still have my horrid tight chest, tickly cough, and my throat is sore, I've still got a roaky voice and my glands are up. grrr - two weeks now. I'm debating going back to docs again, but don't want to be labelled a hypocondriac!

Because I feel poorly I've not run for two weeks either.

I asked counsellor if she was still happy with me not taking any meds, and she said as long as i am out running - yes. So i need to get back out.

She said that running produces endorphins and seratonin, and releases acid. She said meds just try to mimic these, so by running i am doing it naturally. I thought that was interesting.

Blissa - how are you today, are you happier - how is the leg?
Grey skull are you any calmer? Sorry to hear everyone not happy xx

Hi all. Just wanted to pop in!

For me, one of the very worst symptoms of my anxiety and depression is the health anxiety. I work myself into a terrible state convinced that I have a life-threatening illness.

But I don't - and I wanted to offer some reassurance to you that you don't either. I'm not your GP, but statistically it is extremely unlikely that you are going to die, or be incpacitated or any of those terrible things you imagine.

Stay off the Internet, never google your symptoms and try to distract yourself, however hard it may be.