Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Moose could you take your car and then if you feel like its all getting to much you could come away, i know just after my breakdown i went out for a meal with my work colleagues i set myself a goal to stay for an hour and ended up staying about two and a half (everyone at work knew about my condition so felt quite relaxed). If you give it a go you cant beat yourself up about it, but if you dont feel up to it have yourself a nice chill out evening, i used to have a nice b bath and lavender candles x I havent been well this weekend had a sickness bug, back at work tomorrow then dd is in hospital for 2 days from wed so i am giving the lavender calenders a good go now x

Thanks mummy, i have decided (well for the moment anyway!) to go, in the car too, and see what it brings. They know why i am off, so there is no expectations from them.
I'm okay today and have counselling later.
I would second your advice about a bath being nice! I usually rush about and have a shower, but lately I have found a nice bubble bath very relaxing!

Hope dd will be okay, are you giving yourself a talking to about it all (thats what i do!)?

Hi all, glad to hear your feeling better today moose, hope the counselling session goes well. I think thats definately the right thing to do tomorrow, I know I'd be in 2 minds "what if"etc, but I'd also beat myself up if I didn't go.

My chest is still playing up today and I can feel myself starting to wind myself up about it. Half of me is saying its just part of the cough/cold, muscles but there's a little voice going "what if it's not??". I'm trying to relax, I don't feel any where near as bad or anxious as I did that day, but its still not a nice feeling.

Hope your first day back at work is going well mummytopebs, and that your dd is ok x

hi, my pain in my chest has gone but i have a a bit of a deep chesty cough so hoping thats what it was! Perhaps thats what yours is Blissa?

Ive just been a bit jittery today. When dh woke me with a cuppa this morning i was dreaming i was just about to start running a race!

Counselling was good again, didn't cry really today!

She said to go to meal and show if you want to but dont expect too much of yourself. Eat something light, no alcohol, and sit on the end, and you can pop in and out. But dont expect to feel great the next day because you will be mentally tired. She advised against going into work.

Feeling nervous tonite bout hosp with dd tomorrow, she is getting sedated she has had it done before but worry in case she doesnt wake up! Tryin to talk to myself, tell myself it will be ok and be strong but thought keeps nagging me

she will be fine
my dd was sedated and i was terrified as she was very unwell in stateof collapse and had very low body weight but she was absolutely fine and i would not be scared next time[honest!]
how old is she?

she is 3.9, she has been sedated twice before and ga but feel really anxious this time

i really empathise but try to cling on to ,rationally,she will be perfectly fine as she will be monitored throughout and it will be really quick.
What is the reason shes having it?

24 hour eeg because of flashing in her eyes, possibly occipital epilepsy or if not emotions!-possible mild autism

i saw your thread on it i think .
is it just to put all the electrodes on mainly,cos eeg is painless isn't it?
it will be good to get the result tho.
Have they considered migraine?

its all painless,just takes a few minutes to set up.
its similar to an ecg,just reads information and records a chart,you don't feel it.

when my ds (9) had his op the other week they put all the 'sticky pads' on his chest and attached the electric plug bit to them, and he asked 'is that to electrocute me?'

I sure she will be ok mummy, us mums worry because thats what we do best. I know when ds went down they said it would be a 30 min op and he was gone nearly 3 hours - i thought he had stopped breathing or they couldn't wake him up - thats partly what has made me ill i think - the memory of it.
in reality they couldn't get the wires in where they wanted to go, but its easy to think the worst isn't it.

try to let us know how she gets on later . thinking of you xx

Well we are back from the hospital she took the sedatives bad they made her really violent like a woman possessed so they couldnt get the electrodes on! So we will have to go through it allagain ina couple of weeks with a different sedative. It was quite funny when i have just put her to bed it was like she was drunk, singing and munchies-bless x

They have considered migrane but think she is to young and its been goin on every day for 4 month so to long for migrane.

Proud of myself though only had one little panic and got it under control quickly by focusing on my breathing, thanks for the comments its nice to know people have had similar experiences x

Hi mummy how are you today - sounds like you did great yesterday!

I went out to the meal and theatre last night so very proud of myself.
I was a bit late getting changed to go, so rushing around actually distracted me, and i got there fine!

I had a panic attack going into the pub, and my friend talked to me to keep me talking and it settled. I went in and struggled again, so came out again! But then i did settle and stayed to eat!

Went to the theatre and was ok until it seemed to get busy with people milling around foyer. My legs went and my breathing started up, so i just dived in and sat down! I stayed the show, didnt come out, even though I had probably had enough ten mins before the end. I was aware of the counsellor telling me 'you need to be in control of the situation, not it of you'

Hi all.

Bless your dd mummytopebs, she sounds a strong little thing!

Glad your night out went well moose, I bet it did you the world of good.

I've felt a bit anxious today, my chest is still playing up and I'm fretting over our finances, I think we're in for difficult times ahead. On a positive note I did the hoovering for the first time since my PE today, been too scared it will cause a relapse or something before (well thats my excuse ), I'm just full of irrational fears at the moment

Hi Blissa, have missed you for a couple of days xx Glad you are okay.
I'd have strung out the hoovering for a bit longer if i were you - sounds like a good plan!
My chest has turned into a chesty cough that hurts - but not a lot of coughing, but feels sore and tight and sounds bad! Is your worry do you think?

Hi moose, been a bit busy, meant to get on here yesterday to wish you good luck for last night, I don't know where the days go!

I think it could be a combination of worry and achey muscles tbh. I've lost what little fitness I had pretty quick and all my shoulder and stomach muscles just feel tired. I've still got a bit of a cough and bunged up nose. Hope you're not feeling too poorly x

no I'm okay really. I just know i will keep dh awake all night barking though. i didnt sleep well last night either.
have just had a browse down the threads and noticed that Candy is not happy and called for me! I didnt see that and feel bad. I cant see she has posted anywhere else either? Hope she is ok.

It doesn't help when you can't sleep properly, just makes everything worse. I think I saw Candys posts about her cough a couple of nights ago. Hope she's ok xx

Moose glad you enjoyed your night it makes you feel better when you go into a situation with no expectations for yourself, then every step you achieve is a bonus x My therapist always used to say you control the situation and it does help to keep saying that to yourself.

Hope you feel better soon blissa x

I have had a good day today dd was still off nursery (cos she was still supposed to be in hospital) so we took advantage and went for a walk on the beach, went to the park and the library. Feeling quite positive at the mo and glad i didnt up my tablets a couple of weeks back, however i think it is hormones that make me more anxious so in anohter couple of weeks will want to up them again. Does anyone else find themselves more anxious/irrational at different times of the month?

hi, i get rattled by silly things a week before due on, thats how i know my dates!
Am feeling really grotty today! Went to bed at 6 last night - bad chest, cough, ears and throat hurting, and a migraine!

Oh I don't like this new layout.

Sorry to hear you're not feeling well today Moose, I hope it eases soon. My chest is feeling better today, it was really scareing me yesterday but I think it was just anxiety. I had some friends over last night and we sat chatting and eating while watching Mama Mia and I really relaxed, must do it more often as therapy .

We'll see how long it lasts as have to go to Tescos later, I HATE going on saturdays!
Hope everyone is having a good weekend xx

I dont like the new layout either - i guess til we get used to it! just been back to bed - all the children at partties today!

Went to see that new film beverly Hills chiuahua yest - it was really really good! Children had teacher training day. We went with friends, and to pizza hut, but i think i did too much hence the migraine! The film was fab though - laughed and laughed!

My Dc's like the look of that film! Haven't been to the pictures for ages. At least you've been able to take it easy today

Hi Blissa - yes go and see it, it was really funny - the talking dogs look so natural. They looked so gorgeous in their dresses and sunglasses etc. It was a Disney film - my boys are 6 and 9, the 9 year old really howled with laughter!