Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

hi girls my dh is in hospital had to call999 at 2am as collapsed
will update later

Morning sun - that your DH is unwell.

Meantime, try and stay calm and not panic too much. He is in good hands.

oh no morning sun
what happened?

Oh morningsun, I hope he is ok, thinking of you x

Hi Candy, hope you are having a better day.

My throat is sore again today moose, sorry to hear your not feeling any better. There seems to be so much going around and lingering. I know what you mean about feeling like a hypochondriac, I seem to have a new symptom everyday, today I just feel very weak and tired. Not sure if it's a side effect from my medication or just part of the stress and anxiety. I sat with dp last night upset as it seems I spend my time either concentrating on a pain I have and getting paranoid that its a clot, or I'm worrying about our financial situation. Why did both things have to happen at the same time??

I know I haven't been as active as I was which isn't helping. Up until recently I was convinced doing anything too strenuous would finish me off but now I'm begining to realise I'm maybe not doing enough. The weather hasn't helped the . It's very interesting what your counsellor said moose, and although I'm not quite up to running,I think some long walks would do me the world of good.

And your right about googling greyskull, there is some scary stuff on the 'net!

xxx

Earlier on in this thread (think it was this thread as I post on nearly all the anxiety ones) someone linked to a website called Living Life to the Full - I have just started the course and it's fantastic. It's an online CBT course, funded by NHS Scotland and best of all it's FREE. I have only just begun it but so far am finding it really helpful. I am a health anxiety sufferer too and stopped googling my symptoms a long time ago - you never learn anything really helpful except that your symptom "could be ........" (insert any especially dreadful illness)

Anyway the link was this one

...and Morningsun - hope your DH is okay.

Hi Jollypirate. Thanks for that link I've just sat and listened to the introduction, it sounds like it may be good for me to do it. I know you said you've only just started but I was just wondering how long you spend doing the course each day, and how long it is ovwer all?

hello all. Hope you are okay morningsun, will come again later to see if you have been back on....

Blissa, counsellor said if i can't run do a brisk long walk, will still get the endorphins and seratonin moving. She said years ago when the war was on, and there was trouble, the ladies would go out and clean their windows and front steps (vigorously) to distract themselves from worry. Looking back, she says, they were de-stressing themselves from worry by excercise which produced the endorphins for the feel good factor.
I'm ok today, just tired.Must try get in bed earlier - but i need to try and run - half marathon in four weeks, and I not been out for two weeks now.
xx
oh, doc told me to try www.moodgym. This good too, but i amd going to have a look at your later jolly pirate and see if better. thanks

oh also, I don't like my name, so might change it later, makes me sound like a hippo, and I'm not!

That makes a lot of sense moose, I've been stuck in all week apart from school runs and I can feel myself feeling worse as the days go on. I need to get out and do something, but have little motivation. Really need a kick up the bum at the moment.

Good on you for doing the half-marathon, is it for charity?

Any ideas for your new name?x

Counsellor makes me go out every day, its part of my homework, and also 'me time' acup of tea sat down or a trip to cinema etc.
when i was poorly other day i hadn't been out for about 3 days, and i get panicky about going out, shaky hands, jelly legs, upset tum, so its to de sensitise myself to get used to doing it as second nature.
Why dont you try it and see, is there anywhere you can walk thats nice?

My name, hmmm. I name changed for something, I can't rememebr what, or fancied a change. I used to be Tigi, and sometimes Crystaltips, so maybe I will revert to that. I have a lot of curly blonde hair!

Well I just made myself walk a bit more than I have been doing to do the school run, parked a little further away- its a start. There are a couple of nice country parks nearby, or I could walk by the canal, thing is I'm a fair weather walker!

thanks everyone
am bit spaced out as only had an hours sleep and been to and from hosp 3 times!
He looks much betternow, they are running tests obviously and waiting for results
he was out cold for a few minutes,complete loc
i think he'll be fine
sorry if i was too abrupt ,didn't mean to be,just in a rush,thankyou again
have never called 999 before

Must have been a shock for you morningsun, and very scary. So glad he's ok and hope he's doesn't have to stay in too long, hospitals are not the place to recover

morning sun what was wrong with ur dh?
hsopitals give me the willies

he felt ill with a fever/nausea and sat on edge of bed and passed out,which then woke me
it may be a faint but was a bit longer than faints usually are so they're checking the other causes of collapse as well
he seems fine now,is on acute medical unit tonight
sometimes things look scary,but aren't that bad,but its best to check all causes
he'll be fine

Oh dear morning, I hope the tests come back good. Keep posting to chat with us and let us know you are ok xx

Well done Blissa - thats a really positive thing to do!

thanks moosex
had bad feeling last night when the circumstances of my dh collapse brought up the memories of the accident[involving my ds] that caused me the psychological distress for the last 2 yrs which is now nearly better.
I wonder if i'll ever get over it and if different counselling would help get rid of the confusion and guilt that still comes back.
I found with the counselling last time it was so complicated and traumatic going thru it all it made me worse,and the counsellor didn't have any answers[maybe becos there aren't any?]
feeling a bit low today

have had a little cry and now aware of trying to look normal for my dd who is off school and have to go to hosp later cos youngest ds broke bone last week and has follow up appt today
must clean house its a mess and its half term
don't know if dh discharged today

Sorry to hear you're not feeling so good today morningsun. I hope ds's appointment goes well and that you get some good news frome your dh's results and when he can come home. Take care of yourself xx

thanks blissa,hope you ok
am a bit tearful but am setting target clean house for next hour
"see" you laterx

Good for you. I've done nothing this morning and feel bad. Got to take ds to pre-school soon and then pick dd1 up to take her for an eye test. Feeling a bit spaced out today, things are very up in the air with dps business and I'm worried how we're going to get by. The finance company are coming either today or tomorrow to take back his lorries and my car. He will be left with the one lorry and trailer he owns so can at least go out to work, the next few weeks are going to be tough.

oh no how will you manage without a car?

Morningsun - Oh just come back to thread - so sorry to read you have had a difficult time with your DH - hope he is feeling better and that you are feeling better about it - it must be hard bringing up memories of your DD being poorly.
Hi to Blissa, hope things aren't too awful for you and your DH, it must be a very difficult time.

Wvaes to Mousse & Welcome candy hope you
appointment today goes well.

have had a couple of good sessions the last 2 wednesday's, I have foudn that I talk about my relationship with my mum alot and then I apologised to her yesterday and said - "oh I am not here to talk about my Mum" and the therapist just smiled and said "hmm yes actually I think we are" so maybe we are starting to get to the bottom of my problems.

going out tonight and am now going to try to have a nap as I am winding myself up about it.

hi all
have been to see the counsellor this morning for an hour
she asked me to fill out a test to see how depressed i was i scored avarage,then i took a test for anxiety and scored high.
i knew i would im not as depressed as i was due to ad's but the anxiety is still there.
we talked roughly about my marriage ,my kids ,my family ,my emotions etc
she gave me some stuff to read at home on anxiety and also told me a breathing technique.
i have 2 more appointments lined up.not sure what else she can do for me ,its something i hope that in time will go away like it has before.
im not convinced.
what sort of counselling did you lot have ?

Candy - I am currently having EMDR specifically for PTSD it is a long haul but hopefully it will be worth it in the end.